Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Delibration of Your Heart

What in the world were you thinking about? How could you do that?
I know. Our youth makes us seem so much rash in thinking.

Your actions make me seem to make me distant. I see our differences. You just look past it. I'll correct myself and make His standards.

Swearing makes you cooler? Makes you not stand out? Think. Think again. Just listen to yourself. I wonder whether you know this. Do you know how you sound like.

Don't do anything rash.

Don't bother to listen to this insipid and lackluster lament of mine.

Please. I don't want to change your character. You may not want the change. But the third part of the Trinity will tell you. The spirit beside your conscience will tell you. Are you listening hard?

A lament from a desolated soul.

Friday, March 23, 2007

My Cookie Was Peculated

Name one person who made you smile last night.

A secret to be kept to the grave. My brother also.


What were you doing at 8.00 this morning?

In school doing Add Math and studying Biology



What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

Eating... Tom yam from last night's left overs.


What was something that happened to you in 2006?

I had plastic surgery...


What is the last thing you said aloud?

I want that cookie.


How many different drinks did you drink today?

Two. Milo and water.


What colour is your hairbrush?

No hair brush.


What was the last thing you paid for?

The cookie I bought from a friend



Where have you been last night?

My room. Nothing else so bugger off.


What color is your front door?

Brown. A wood brown.


Where do you keep your change?

In the secret compartment in my undies, happy?


What was the weather like today?

Gloomy. Like my PMSing mood. Add Math+Biology=PMS/28th day of menstrual cycle (I may be wrong about this)


What is the best ice-cream flavour?

Vanilla. Nothing on it and untainted.


What is something you are excited about?

I want that cookie.


Do you want to cut your hair?

I just did. I look like a budak.


Are you over the age of 25?

No but people say I look old.



Do you talk a lot?

If you want to talk about cookies. Tian Ming, I want my cookies back.



Do you watch the O.C?

No. I don't watch EMO shows.


Does your screen name have an "x" in it?

No. I'm no Bryanx. Does that make me sound cool?


Do you know anyone named Steven?

No.


Do you make up your own words?

Koochimoolah (awkward love moments or something weird). Trunkies? No that's Keira's word.


Random Random!

Are you typically a jealous person?

No but if you take my cookie, you will pay.


Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "A":

Audrey.


Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "K":

Keira.


Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?

Keira. Why are you buggering me woman? You are sucking up my air.


What did the last message you received say?

I have your cookie


Do you chew on your straw?

No. Why? Is it because I don't have any crack or pot to smoke?


Do you have curly hair?

No.


Where is the next place you're going?

KL.


Who is the rudest person in your life?

My despicable aunt. 22 years old versus 16 year old. Get your fiance and suck his oxygen.


What is the last thing you ate?

Tomyam rice.


Is marriage in your future?

Yes. I've been through this question and everyone is asking why I want to get married at 23.


What is the best movie you've seen in the last 2 weeks?

Mr Bean On A Holiday. That's the only one I watched for a very long time.


Is there anyone you like right now?

You don't know. I don't know. I shall tell no lies.


When was the last time you did the dishes. be honest

Just now. My tomyam rice bowl?


Are you currently depressed?

Yes in fact. I'm on antidepressants called Fluoxetine and Venlaflaxine. My best friends.


Why did you answer and post this survey?

Because I was requested by May. Thank you. I'm honoured.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Pretense Is Invalid. Tell Me From Afar

Pre Jamboree camp had me busted. I managed to meet up with some people everywhere.

My group for now till the jamboree. Geoffrey, Me (Dong Goi), Yie-Ern, Clarine (Sakkai), May, Shannon, Nicholas, Jun Hsien and Natalie.

Taman S.E.A. people are freaks. We have about 15 people sent for this jamboree. Not the most though.

We had this Sir... The Worst Person in The World according to Kim Sir Collin Khoo. Not so bad la... Or maybe he is. You judge yourself la.

We had some affairs involved also. With a certain people from near and afar.


Wednesday, March 14, 2007

To The Heavans & Down From Haven

CF camp is over. I'm back. I'm physically exhausted but spiritually refreshed. It was something different this time. Not infatuation to Jesus but beyond that.

I didn't hang out with the people of my age but rather with the older ones and those kuchi frys. I was dorm leader and Christine's assistant for devotional groups. Sleep was nearly impossible. I repeat, sleep is nearly impossible. Every single miserable year I end up with two things. Someone in my dorm has to snore loudly. Not their fault actually. If I slept earlier than them, I think I'll snore because of the fatigue.

Every year, my group has to produce girls for a bimbo act. I know what you're thinking of. Not that the girls are bimbos.

I had a few meaningful talks with people I didn't really talk to. I surprise myself sometimes. I had a listening ear for their thoughts while they listened to me also. This really means something to me. It was sincere. I feel happy.

The response for worship of the first few sessions weren't that good until the last night. I played!!! =) That's not the point. I syok sendiri only. For the moonlight session I was dragged by this spicy chick while I dragged along the tired and exhausted chick.

May Wan (spicy chick), Me and Clarice (Tired chick)

Yeah. May Wan was jumping up and down and was super duper hyper. On the other hand Clarice was like... urm tired.

Let me introduce to you a good friend of mine. She left school and she really touched my heart. She's been accompanying me throughout my Form 1 and 2 days of spiritual walk.

Me and Tze Nie

Thank you for walking with me this lonely and narrow road.

谢谢你给我这个机会。可是,为什么你给我这个机会当你知道我对你不完全真真的真心。你的爱绝对不能比别人的爱。你真是宇宙里第一。你真是不肯放弃我虽然我的罪孽太多至不能在数算了。真是感谢你。我其实不值得被你牺牲你的生命。我真的不能了解你为何要牺牲你的生命给我。

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

My Angel Sings

I've been for so many practices this week that my ass is busted from sitting down on the piano stool.

The Sunday's performance was great. But the pay wasn't great. Haha.

Someone could really reach real high without even stretching much. Wow. She's an angel.

I was kinda down on Wednesday but Umesh said something that really made my day. Thanks. Some things come during the unpredictable times and unseen corners.

Speaking of times and moments, Stephanie said something that made me wonder.
"It really is annoying when you tell people a joke or something and the effect is not the same and the effect isn't there. The moment's gone."
Yeah. She made me think about how should I put it. That person didn't hear me. Not her fault. Maybe it was meant to go to the grave with me. It never existed.

我现在感到对自己很失望。 我怎么样会对她那么冷静? 真是对不起。
我应该忘记过了的事情。