Loch Mae Haert

It's been a hiatus since I last blogged.

Long gone were the days where I could just bum around and do stuff I wanted to do.

What's important to you? Is you're pride important to you? You having the last word? It is still not too late. The late is when you STOP. How senseless we use the word love isn't it? Or the word hate? Or the four letter words we hear everyday. It disgusts me. People taking things for granted and say things we don't mean. That's just lying.

That's the part which hurts when you listen. But... if you stand strong, what would you achieve? Trust, faith, hope, senseless joy and love. What is more important to you? I may not be inside you anymore but when the love is bigger than anything, it always prevails. Stand strong.

Is there anyone who could stand strong with me? I am still looking hard.

Tell Me On A Sunday Please

I really have been feeling the roller coaster of emotions this year. I'm really not surprised that people would just back away from me and think I'm some kind of emotional or psychotic freak. I owe people many apologies.

Is it because I came to a new place and I just can't start over?

Is it because I just had to grow up so much?

The thing is, I realise how much more complex I seem to be when I came here. I so stupid sometimes. Does that mean I can't be who I really want to be? No, I'm not blaming anyone. People have different priorities. People define a 'friend' differently. People define 'love' differently as well.

Brandon may have better luck than I have. That's why I wanted him to have 3 years to work on it since I find myself failing and failing again.

No. I will not give myself any pity

'We fall down to pick ourselves up again.'

I love that line. It's from Batman. I like Batman.

Question of the day: How much do you know about your friends?

I just have to stand strong.