Sunday, May 27, 2007

Life's Testimony

I am in a midst of daydreaming to the point where my face shows a tinge of nostalgia.

I have been walking down the memory lane lately.

Reflecting on my life.

Talking with God.

Have I been been bumming around? I really don't know.

Believe it or not, I went through a quarter of my life with resentment and rebellion. I was a tough cookie when I got to the age of 10. I was really mean to my brother and I find that I was just hating life and finding the world so unfair. Maybe that was teen angst arriving early. My mom and dad were just at the tip of the cliff. Looking back, I am really so so sorry. I was ungrateful. I was angry at everyone. I know it may not seem much because of my youth but these are your tender ages where your maturity develops.

It will be hard to change yourself when you are older. It's till the point where you just shut off.

-But-

If with patience, compassion and prayer; you can change a person. I really believe so.

By the time I reached secondary school, I am exposed to more than curricular discipline and homework like in Puai Chai. It was a horror just enduring standard 5 and 6. Even though it was UPSR I was struggling to keep my head above the water.

I am really different than who I was then. I learnt not to hate things. Sports, music and all aspects of life are tests.

Family Camp is coming up next. Yeah...

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