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Do you get the feeling that I would ask you a weird like cuckoo question that would get you would just say:

That is so random...

Like this one from me.

When you are dreaming what are your dreams about?

I know. It's a weird question to pop up in the middle of class which would grant the teacher to clear their throat and annoy the socks off them.

You know what I dream of?

I dream of being a pimp.

Big pause eh?

Okay. I have to stop that. Haha.

I dream of having wings to fly.

Loch Mae Haert

It's been a hiatus since I last blogged.

Long gone were the days where I could just bum around and do stuff I wanted to do.

What's important to you? Is you're pride important to you? You having the last word? It is still not too late. The late is when you STOP. How senseless we use the word love isn't it? Or the word hate? Or the four letter words we hear everyday. It disgusts me. People taking things for granted and say things we don't mean. That's just lying.

That's the part which hurts when you listen. But... if you stand strong, what would you achieve? Trust, faith, hope, senseless joy and love. What is more important to you? I may not be inside you anymore but when the love is bigger than anything, it always prevails. Stand strong.

Is there anyone who could stand strong with me? I am still looking hard.

Tell Me On A Sunday Please

I really have been feeling the roller coaster of emotions this year. I'm really not surprised that people would just back away from me and think I'm some kind of emotional or psychotic freak. I owe people many apologies.

Is it because I came to a new place and I just can't start over?

Is it because I just had to grow up so much?

The thing is, I realise how much more complex I seem to be when I came here. I so stupid sometimes. Does that mean I can't be who I really want to be? No, I'm not blaming anyone. People have different priorities. People define a 'friend' differently. People define 'love' differently as well.

Brandon may have better luck than I have. That's why I wanted him to have 3 years to work on it since I find myself failing and failing again.

No. I will not give myself any pity

'We fall down to pick ourselves up again.'

I love that line. It's from Batman. I like Batman.

Question of the day: How much do you know about your friends?

I just have to stand strong.

The Unending Hope

I need You. I am so lost somehow. I feel the world is closing upon me. I know it may seem so small and unimportant but just lead me and I will go.

I have Your hope. 

It has been a week where I am evaluating on my relationships, faith and basically stuff. I have been trying to differentiate the difference of what's real to me. What really matters to me.



Compassion. That's what we need in this world which is collapsing in to pieces. The world has hope. Life is good. 

Loose Socks

It haw been a good trip back home to Malaysia. The flight wasn't so good though. 

I know I am a lazy person and I didn't blog about it until much later. 

Well I went to Vinser's "surprise party which in the end wasn't much of a surprise because he was a spoilt sport. 

It was great fun and I enjoyed catching up with family and friends. 

I have read a book which made me think. Everyone hears this all the time though but we often just put it behind our minds knowing yet not knowing that we take every new day for granted. 

"You learn how to live when you learn how to die." 

It asks us a rhetorical question of: would you live life only to the fullest when you know you are dying?

May God grant us the strength to move on everyday. Really does the small things matter anymore? Your pride, how you look, money or even studies, how many people liking you (popularity) or whatever. I feel that our belief/ faith, family, friends and loved ones matter the most now. That's my number one priority. 

I Can See My Transparent Strings

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My brothers mean the world to me. No matter what happens, we're brothers. We're all in it together, through everything that happens. 

We stand strong together.

Look Away In The Hindered People's Land

The exams are near to this date I'm blogging. I'm am getting the heeby-jeebies. Haha.  

I am just blogging just for the fun of it. Went out for Daniel's birthday. 

We went to Pancake parlour. 

I know, I know, it's the same story with Krispy Kreme and everyone says I'm ungrateful. Lots of people rant how good it is or they rant that it isn't such a big deal. 

My statement after eating Krispy Kreme is: Okay. Haha. I know I am such a sit on the fence kind of guy. Don't blame me. No sweet tooth. 

I feeling oh-so-lazy. Gotta kick my arse to work.