Broodings of A Mortal

Bring On The SACs

2009-02-26T22:14:00.001-08:00

I seriously can't believe I'm year 12 yet. Argh. Chemistry SAC was my first of many more to come.

Guess what I found?

I bet Sarah lover, XC and Maddi would have pressed it. You know why? Cuz you're retards!!!! LOL.

G'day. Gotta dig my nose into books.

Anglais

2009-02-18T01:42:00.000-08:00

English is considered as the number one most used language in the world, which in fact is important both academically and for communicative purposes. Are these pictures enough to stress my point?

Isn't this familiar? From somewhere I call Malaysia. Some animosity people do show. Is the mafia after you?

Not that anyone I know needs it.

Girls, here's your complaint centre.

Scroll down for the final one.

Some great ideas politicians get these days. Talk about anti pornographic associations.

My friends, English. English.

Frágil e Fraco..

2009-02-16T00:51:00.000-08:00

I'm just so weak and stupid.

Who will want me? Is that why do I feel the reluctance to go deeper in my relationships?

I am a coward. I know the consequences. Do I live to gratify myself? I enjoy making people happy. Is it selfish to do so? I sometimes feel like an idiot.

Afraid of hurting them, hurting me along the way. With everyone. I wreck everything.

Her. Her. Her. It's always about her.

Love is the strongest thing in the world. That's why I dislike our survival instinct. Our necessity to survive, to gratify our desires. Being human is no easy task.

Thirst, hunger, lust, self gratification.

Jesus wept. Even he felt the burden. I need his determination. I want to be with Him.

I feel the difficulty in saying the word 'I love you' to anyone outside. I know because my definition is enduring, absolute. It will stay no matter what. I am looking hard. Who will want me? This sentence must be looked upon deeper, it is more of a "Is there anyone for me?" I'm so different, so strange.

I can hardly blame rejection. It's not as if you meant we can't be friends.

Friends, another loose term. I wish it can mean more than that with everyone.

Humans. We are a difficult species, with much individuality to share. God's compassion to give us a choice. I know what it means.

Enough ranting. It's enough for anyone to bang their head to the wall.

My prayers, peace, support to people in need, especially the bush fire victims. The fourth finger. The weak and needy.

Did you know what video the United States of America posted with celebrities?

I pledge:

I hope Rove is wrong though although he his certainly funny. I have a small question? Why is it centred on Barack Obama instead of America? I know he needs the support, but it is placed in a really creepy way. Oh well, at least they are trying.

Teaching People To Hate Unconsciously

2009-01-28T04:09:00.000-08:00

Why would people hate so much? Does pain, remorse, suffering bring that? If so, Lord give me strength. I don't want to walk that path.

People growing up has a myriad of input of advice and influences. Superficial or profound alike. I am pained to see that. How do we stayed as untainted from the dirt as possible? My friend said to put in more detergent. It is ironic in it's sense but it is my utmost displeasure to admit his much annoying metaphors.

We won't stay untainted like that forever. Parents will block you, they might stain you on the way, but it has come to me that your own input is needed.

I need to stay sane. I need Him. Always and forever.

It's A Masquerade With People

2009-01-14T07:18:00.000-08:00

It seems so fun at first but you get tired when you don't get to see their faces after awhile. It was all a game, but it was fun while it lasted. Taking off some masks were almost unbearable. Sometimes it felt as if you came to the party without a mask. Didn't that make you feel so vulnerable? Maybe it's because I want to wear a mask as well.

It's without wax with Him. Without wax with my loved ones.

Holidays. Holidays. Bother. Dinner. Dinner and more dinners. It's so fun but I get the bad lurch in my stomach the next day knowing that I haven't finished my long itinerary of things to do.

The big one comes this year. I feel the pressure now. I really want to serve people with illness and pain. I really want to help them. I just hope and pray with blood, sweat and tears that I will make it. How? I only can ask Him. No one else can tell me.

Wait. Let's get a breather, is it for me in the first place? Is it what He wants? No idea YET, but I hope I'll find out soon.

I better get started on the UMAT.

I'M TURNING INTO A NERD!!! THAT LADY IS SO RIGHT!!! I'M DOOMED!!!

Taking Something You Can't Take Back, Words

2009-01-07T19:29:00.000-08:00

I shouldn't have said the things I didn't mean. I know even though I'm tired, I shouldn't have said that. They are the people I love most.

I feel really tired.

Find rest, O my soul, In God alone,
my hope comes from Him,
He alone is my rock and salvation,
He is my fortress, I will not be shaken.

Look Into My Life With Time As Sand

2009-01-06T19:49:00.000-08:00

Driving today has been alright. I didn't do anything stupid at least. I know, I'm a self proclaimed klutz. Have you ever tried to remember something important but you find the memory slipping away from your grasp?

Remembering something from the Wife of Martin Guerre, Betrande tries to remember her the face of her long absent husband but fails despairingly.

I know, I shouldn't make comparisons with homework huh? Don't you find it sad that you can't remember something really important.

It's me. I'm guilty of all the above.

I've been reading the Chronicles of Narnia in the holidays. Since being read to The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe since being a toddler, this series never grows old in my heart. Reading it everytime gives me new light on the stories and chracters. Clive Staple Lewis or you guys might know him as C. S. Lewis is an excellent writer who writes timeless stories, both stirring hearts both of young and old.

Quoting from it a good line from Lucy, (I like Lucy you know, her innocence and obedience. No, I'm am not some sick paedophile.)

" "Aslan," said Lucy, "you're bigger."
"That's because you are older, little one," answered he.
"Not because you are?"
" I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger." "

It's Aslan!!!

and people tell me I'm crazy. Go read the series and you'll know what I mean. It's a secret.

Cold Glass

2009-01-02T18:49:00.000-08:00

The clouds have cleared and I'm free finally. The moving, chores and holiday assignments are piling up but OVER. Well almost.

I didn't know things had changed so much.
Oh well, people change. You get your ups and downs. It's all fast. No time for adapting. It's unfair of me to expect things to stay the same forever.

Sounds like when I was a kid, expecting things to stay pristine forever. My new toys to stay perfect forever.

I suppose this is time to spend time with family.

Sibelius My Godfather

2009-01-02T18:25:00.000-08:00

It's been a while.
Stephanie's busy and in Penang right now.

I made the mistake of thinking that everything would be the same.

Maybe I've become an emo. HAHA. I suppose so. I'm a non conformist. I rebel by being different. No one knows what I mean. I'm crazy.

Anyway, it was fun looking at aunties dressing up weirdly.

I got dragged into this.

A crazy person..

Can't believe you left to NS already..

Friend.. Starting school so early? Why dressed up so 80s?

We had our fun. Hope I can meet up with old friends as well. But everyone's busy. ;P

My Path In The Long Hard Road.

2008-12-28T19:25:00.000-08:00

It has been one of the busiest Christmases ever. It's been a moving, fast paced one that is equally undesirable yet something to be tasted. Knowing myself, I would want to slow down but that is unlikely.

I went to Singapore. The stoopid small country that you stoopid Singaporeans go to. Joking okay. Anyway, I met up with Ben and Nick and it has been fun going around Orchard Road eating and shopping.

Before that, we took a break which wasn't really a break for my dad since he had to drive to Penang. The place wasn't bad but me and mum got a bad case of stomach flu.

It's time for me to reflect on my walk with God since my baptism not too long back.

No fancy words, just keeping it simple and clean.

I had to think about this with much deliberation and contemplation.

Why did I believe in Him? Is it because I want to go to heaven? Is it because I want God to give me good grades and 'protect' me? Is it because I have been hurt by people and use him as an excuse to 'cast my cares upon him'? Is it because God is my Genie who grants me kazillion wishes?

I'm not saying that it is wrong to pray for these things, but I don't want to believe in God for the perks and the 'staff' benefits. I don't want Him to be my insurance. I don't want him to be someone who I only go to when I need something.

No. I believe in Him because he loved me and did something that should not have happened for me. He showed me that love wins everything. I want Him to be my Father, friend and my guide forever and ever.

I absolutely respect all religion, demographics, denominations in society that there is. However, I don't do this for the religion. People get it so wrong to focus on it as a religion. Yeah no doubt Christianity is a religion but I think it is more significant to me as a relationship.

I hear people saying that they find it a heresy and sacrilegious that people can form a relationship with God or 'marry' themselves to the church or God. In my personal opinion, there is no wrong in doing so.

What is marriage? I know I'm still young and far from the topic, but with what parents, friends and what God has taught me, marriage is about making the person you love happy for the rest of your life. Giving them all you can, giving them your trust and faith, supporting them, a want to spend the rest of your life with them.

Let me get this straight, what you get when you sign up for Christianity is a small path of trials and tribulations. I'm not trying to deter anyone from believing but I think it's important to know what you are signing yourself up for. You become someone who is to be a peacemaker, a person to deny oneself, love others no matter how ugly, hateful they are. You are to give your life to God completely. It is a small and hard to take in life, but with God, I can do it.

Get my analogy?

I want to love Him, give Him all I can, my trust and faith, my support and my whole life to Him with no doubt because I feel His love, his presence in my life.

I know. People are going to think I'm crazy, but that's what I want.

Ten Ai Lean

2008-10-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

1. The last person to tag you is?
Tan I Lyn

2. What's the relationship between you and him/her?
Slave driver who is absolutely merciless.

3. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
1) Smart
2) Genius
3) Nerd
4) Awesome ballet dancer
5) Smart

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.
Show her angry face which is mondo funny. HAHAHAHA.

5. The most memorable words that he/she said to you.
She said that I'm lame. How memorable. Does this make you feel guilty now. Any regrets?

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
My fans will get jealous.

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
I'll be really scared. She can be really scary at times huh. Haha kidding.

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is....
Because I was LAME.

10. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?...
Make sure she smiles.

11. The overall impression to he/her is..
Happy and a good listener

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Lame and random.

13. The character for you for yourself is?
Cool and cooler. Awesome and awesom-er

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Being a geek.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Understanding, patient and cooler

Free

2008-10-03T23:03:00.001-07:00

Do you get the feeling that I would ask you a weird like cuckoo question that would get you would just say:

That is so random...

Like this one from me.

When you are dreaming what are your dreams about?

I know. It's a weird question to pop up in the middle of class which would grant the teacher to clear their throat and annoy the socks off them.

You know what I dream of?

I dream of being a pimp.

Big pause eh?

Okay. I have to stop that. Haha.

I dream of having wings to fly.

Loch Mae Haert

2008-09-13T15:31:00.001-07:00

It's been a hiatus since I last blogged.

Long gone were the days where I could just bum around and do stuff I wanted to do.

What's important to you? Is you're pride important to you? You having the last word? It is still not too late. The late is when you STOP. How senseless we use the word love isn't it? Or the word hate? Or the four letter words we hear everyday. It disgusts me. People taking things for granted and say things we don't mean. That's just lying.

That's the part which hurts when you listen. But... if you stand strong, what would you achieve? Trust, faith, hope, senseless joy and love. What is more important to you? I may not be inside you anymore but when the love is bigger than anything, it always prevails. Stand strong.

Is there anyone who could stand strong with me? I am still looking hard.

Tell Me On A Sunday Please

2008-09-13T15:30:00.000-07:00

I really have been feeling the roller coaster of emotions this year. I'm really not surprised that people would just back away from me and think I'm some kind of emotional or psychotic freak. I owe people many apologies.

Is it because I came to a new place and I just can't start over?

Is it because I just had to grow up so much?

The thing is, I realise how much more complex I seem to be when I came here. I so stupid sometimes. Does that mean I can't be who I really want to be? No, I'm not blaming anyone. People have different priorities. People define a 'friend' differently. People define 'love' differently as well.

Brandon may have better luck than I have. That's why I wanted him to have 3 years to work on it since I find myself failing and failing again.

No. I will not give myself any pity

'We fall down to pick ourselves up again.'

I love that line. It's from Batman. I like Batman.

Question of the day: How much do you know about your friends?

I just have to stand strong.

The Unending Hope

2008-07-25T20:05:00.000-07:00

I need You. I am so lost somehow. I feel the world is closing upon me. I know it may seem so small and unimportant but just lead me and I will go.

I have Your hope.

It has been a week where I am evaluating on my relationships, faith and basically stuff. I have been trying to differentiate the difference of what's real to me. What really matters to me.

Compassion. That's what we need in this world which is collapsing in to pieces. The world has hope. Life is good.

Loose Socks

2008-07-18T19:50:00.000-07:00

It haw been a good trip back home to Malaysia. The flight wasn't so good though.

I know I am a lazy person and I didn't blog about it until much later.

Well I went to Vinser's "surprise party which in the end wasn't much of a surprise because he was a spoilt sport.

It was great fun and I enjoyed catching up with family and friends.

I have read a book which made me think. Everyone hears this all the time though but we often just put it behind our minds knowing yet not knowing that we take every new day for granted.

"You learn how to live when you learn how to die."

It asks us a rhetorical question of: would you live life only to the fullest when you know you are dying?

May God grant us the strength to move on everyday. Really does the small things matter anymore? Your pride, how you look, money or even studies, how many people liking you (popularity) or whatever. I feel that our belief/ faith, family, friends and loved ones matter the most now. That's my number one priority.

I Can See My Transparent Strings

2008-07-06T03:18:00.000-07:00

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My brothers mean the world to me. No matter what happens, we're brothers. We're all in it together, through everything that happens.

We stand strong together.

Look Away In The Hindered People's Land

2008-05-12T00:20:00.000-07:00

The exams are near to this date I'm blogging. I'm am getting the heeby-jeebies. Haha.

I am just blogging just for the fun of it. Went out for Daniel's birthday.

We went to Pancake parlour.

I know, I know, it's the same story with Krispy Kreme and everyone says I'm ungrateful. Lots of people rant how good it is or they rant that it isn't such a big deal.

My statement after eating Krispy Kreme is: Okay. Haha. I know I am such a sit on the fence kind of guy. Don't blame me. No sweet tooth.

I feeling oh-so-lazy. Gotta kick my arse to work.

Let Us Be The Peacemakers

2008-04-28T05:00:00.000-07:00

I know. I should be shot for not updating my blog. I have lost track of time in Melbourne. The weather is getting cold. So is my will to wake up in the mornings when my butt refuses to lift off. Haha. Yes. I'm still lame as ever.

I really miss home but I know I have to make do of what I have here.

Went out with Ben and gang to La Pochetta and then we went to the pancake parlour next door in Doncaster.

The crazy bunch. Happy Birthday Ben.

Ben is always smiling. Daniel is always perving. Haha.

Yup. We said they are Ben and Ben in action.

The last pictures are for the final doodoo. Stacey. Don't act cute puhleese.

I will have to make time for the next post.

The last word of the blog: Steps!!!

Amici Siempre

2008-03-25T00:10:00.000-07:00

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
God, family and my friends

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
No.

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
Zi Qian. Someone who is on the same wave-length as me. We share our frustrations.

Grace. She can tell me stories till I sleep. Nah. Joking yeah...

Stephanie. Someone who will listen to my lame jokes and will roll my eyes with me when the person above makes a bimbo statement.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
A place with all my friends and my loved ones.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Everyone to be happy...

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Uhuh

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Friends and family...

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Get me a new ride...

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Haha...

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Cheerful, funny and chilli padi

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
-Accept me and love me as I am.

-Funny person.

-Responsible.

-Loving and shows lots of compassion

-Likes to watch cartoons like me

-Likes going out like me.

-Likes holding my hand.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most? Ignorant people who don't try to learn.

13. Highlight of the week? My mom's here in Melbourne. I sound like a mother's kid. Xp

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

I have no idea. I guess if it's helpful then please tell me.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My loved ones. The art of living a good life and having no regrets.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Not really...

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
Chili padi!!! She's like the most active person I know.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
??? Erm. I suppose being more efficient and not so slow...?

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
A mad person coming up to me and talking gibberish. Actually, that wasn't shocking. It was actually kinda sad and pitiful.

20. What are you thinking now?
I miss home. I sound like a brat though.

I haven't been keeping in touch with people in Kl. I feel like an idiot.

The people here are friendly but after all I'm still a newbie and I suppose it's all still new and fresh.

I know my best friend is in the distance but I'm gonna try.

My other best friend is also having difficulty in life but I'm gonna try as well.

No photos. Too lazy. Xp

Sang Out My Voice

2008-03-14T19:02:00.000-07:00

I am getting tired of going all the way to Hawthorn and back just for piano lessons. Public transport isn't cheap even with the concession. I know Ying Ling would complain that one lesson will cost her one outfit.

Ying Ling came to the down under that day. I met her in Flinders Station to bring her out for Max Brenners. Chocolate shop.

The sakao for the sakai.

I learnt many thing in this country. You do things that you wouldn't usually do. I thank God for giving me the right friends here.

My outcomes are coming soon. Ta.

Break The Horizons

2008-02-26T01:18:00.000-08:00

Cloudy day at the swimming carnival

I'm so the tiger.

Yellow house. Windsor!!!

Went to koko black.

"Eat me. EAT ME!!!"

Shoot peace. Yeah.

Two hot chocolates, cappuccino and a baby ccino. (The one with a raspberry smile)

For once something looks as advertised. =P

Down the street

School Without Shells

2008-02-16T23:37:00.000-08:00

School uniform. Like it?

I miss home like so much.

Last Thursday, the teachers from the whole state of Victoria on strike.

Something that doesn't happen in Kl.

School was distributing roses on Valentines day.

Pizza day on Wednesday.

Crepe day on Tuesday. We were using Fob (fresh-off the-boat) pronunciation for crepe. Creepy? Crap? Creep? All of us are creeps.

Krispy Kreme day on Monday. Yes. You'll get use to the sweetness when you're here.

You won't believe how boring the food here is.

I wonder how Wen Xian puts on weight?

Breakfast- cereal, cereal, cereal, cereal, Maggi mee (salvation), cereal...

Lunch- Sandwich, sandwich, sandwich, sandwich, sandwich and occasionally pasta.

Dinner has so much more variety.

Gifts Of Resilience

2008-02-09T18:22:00.000-08:00

Look what I found on my phone. Such a gay ass. Grace and Mei Shan said someone was acting gay by himself. Sad. I feel sad.

School basketball courts. There's like I think 6 more. I have no idea why do they need so many.

Cafeteria

I'll have to find time to update my blog soon. How dare you insult me Han Hwa.

Give Me The Sunshine Of My Life

2008-02-04T20:27:00.000-08:00

I wish I was back home.

I miss my family.

I miss my best friend.

I miss my friends.

Bah.

I should just keep myself busy and keep my nose in the books where it belongs.

It was Australia Day long long long long time ago last month and we had steak as all Aussie 'blokes' do.

The lockers here are very irritating. It's not like the way you see in movies where you think that all the the students are so glamourous and have lockers and walk to class.

Nope. All those stuff makes you late and you'll need a late pass. 3 lates and you're out of the class for good. That's what my Physics teacher said. Some people said he was previously in the army.

Lunch!

You can't imagine how tiresome lunch is here. No more buying from the canteen. Tandoori chicken sandwich? No way.

But now I guess I'm healthier since I've been like eating peaches and grapes everyday.

Yup. The school is typically separated into jocks, cheerleaders, nerd (anime club readers club) and us normal people. But all of us get along well enough.

6 subjects. 6 periods. 2-3 free periods. I do not like the days with all subjects. Tiring.

Chinese is okay to me.

English is a piece of cake. ESL. All the foreign students are in that class.

Physics. Asian (an ugly word) Male Only.

Chemistry. Good people

Han Hwa. There isn't a person in this school who can match your retarded-ness.

Time Exchanges Quickly

2008-01-25T14:46:00.000-08:00

Okie. I know it may sound really LOA to other people but here are my online times.

You would most probably find me online during Malaysian time:

Weekdays

2:30-4:30

-and-

6:30-8:30

Disclaimer: No I am not online at both times but most probably during one of those times.

Mail me!!!

Missing In Action

2008-01-23T22:06:00.000-08:00

I'm missing in action and I'm missing you so much.

I arrived safely people and I already miss you guys heaps.

This Is My Last

2008-01-13T04:48:00.000-08:00

Yup it's my last week and I'm really getting desperate to see people for the last time for a very long time. If I don't make use of this week I'm gonna so kill myself for it man.

Haih. I went to Bali and I lost a lot of time but yet I gained time with my family. It's so bitter sweet thing.

No pics. Sorry guys. Ok maybe if I have the time.

The Sky Showed My Feelings Today

2008-01-07T03:30:00.000-08:00

Thanks for having lunch with me Ying Ling and Ian. I supposed we had a weird time of a water bra story. Thanks so much... I can't stop think about what you said now.

I have lost it. I am not focused. I almost lost my resolve.

I have no choice to do it alone. I wished I had someone to help.

But, it can't be helped.

I am silenced.

A Houdini Act

2008-01-03T19:48:00.000-08:00

I feel like making a disappearing act right now. Just pull the band-aid fast from your skin.

I don't know but i really still want to go out with friends and family even though I'm still going out with them. Maybe it's just me.

I feel kinda distant with everybody. I can't really talk to anyone right now.

I feel so paranoid also. Bugger me.

Wen Xian if you're reading this... when can we go out? You said you want to go to school.

FONG FEI GEI

Blissful Euphemisms

2008-01-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

Haha. I was talking to a friend which agreed with me that we wouldn't do tags unless the tagger wrote our full names specifically. Smart Sarah. =)

Part 1:On the Outside

Name : Bryan Yong Hoe
Date of Birth : 20 April 1991
Current Status : That's for me to know and you to guess.
Eye Colour : Dark Brown
Hair Colour : Black
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Taurus

Part 2:On the Inside

Your Heritage : Mix here a bit and mixed there a bit but I'm sure got at least 50% chinese.
Your Fear : Saying goodbye for a long time.
Your Weakness : Being gullible
Your Perfect Pizza : Less crust more ingredients

Part 3:Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up : No more mamak.
Your bedtime : Varies from 10 to 2
Your most missed memory : The time when everyone was happy, whether friends or family.

Part 4:

Your PickPepsi or Coke : COKE!
McD's or Burger King : Carl's Jr
Single or Group Dates : Single
Adidas or Nike : Nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla
Cappucino or Coffee : No caffeine please

Part 5:Do You . . .

Smoke : Nope
Curse : Depends.
Drink : Nope

Part 6:In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : Nope
Gone to the mall : Yes and quite a lot of times also.
Been on stage : Yes
Eaten sushi: Yes
Dyed your hair : I wish.

Part 7:Have You Ever?

Played a stripping game : Nope
Changed who you were to fit in : I won't say no and I won't say yes either. But for me mostly no.

Part 8:

AgeYou're hoping to be married : 26

Part 9:In A Guy/Girl
Best eye colour : Green.
Hair colour : Anything
Short or long hair : Shoulder length?

Part 10:What Were You Doing?

1 minute ago : On the phone
1 hour ago : In a shopping mall
1 month ago : Can't remember
1 year ago : Celebrating New year.

Part 11:Finish The Sentences

I love : the feeling of truly being loved. I guess that what everyone wants.
I feel : confused. Sad. Excited. Anxious. Tired
I miss : Malaysia and home already.
I need : to let go.

Part 12:Tag 5 People

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Sorry so not sporting lar.

Senza Procurio

2008-01-01T20:03:00.000-08:00

It's been really busy and I kinda feel the regret for not even wishing some people Happy New Year so... Happy New Year.

This year shows many promises and beginnings with endings.

Sometimes I hesitate too much but I guess I know what I need to do in the end. As you people probably heard of so many people ranting about how much they will miss home... but I'm even missing it even now.

Begin your year with a bang.

Look At The Posers (Mannikin???) In The Window

2007-12-28T22:18:00.000-08:00

It was a day with no sunshine as four girls used the webcam on my com to camwhore and laugh like giggly girls. Stephanie you're no exception this time.

Look at Grace. Hohoho. Constipated buddies with Mei Shan.

Look what we found on somebody's phone. :O

Lastly, the picture that's long awaited. Mei Shan's muscle pic. Muaaahahahaha.

Quote of that day:

"You know ah, after the LEO Leadership camp I came back black and you know I got muscle now. "

-Chu Mei Shan

~Seriously

Solamente Hermano

2007-12-23T00:44:00.000-08:00

I don't blame you for hating me sometimes.
I shouldn't have any expectations. It's just I get the pressure as well.
I feel so useless sometimes.
Maybe a lot of times.
You can do a lot of stuff that I can't.
I shouldn't be so discouraging in the first place.
I shouldn't take it from them and pass it down to you.

You're my only brother.

Paradizo Pieta

2007-12-21T22:49:00.000-08:00

Singapore trip...

Trip to Melbourne...

Someone I'd like Mei Shan and Grace to meet

Balwyn in The City of Boroondara, city of paradise

Nice...

Laughing At The Wall Alone

2007-11-30T04:59:00.000-08:00

My dad and I went to Fraser's Hill for a trip.

Birthday dinner for Brandon.

Going away for a week. So I'm not blogging then. I'm also missing camp. Bummer.

You don't need to be alone. You have a friend.

A Reminiscence From My Past

2007-11-26T17:05:00.001-08:00

We're pouting

Sleep your head off la.

Felicità

2007-11-20T05:24:00.000-08:00

No more emo stuff ok?

By the way? Since when I'm in the category emo?

It was Mei Shan and Grace's birthday party last Friday.

Happy Birthday girls. Sweet 16teen.

For the Kay Poh girls. Dedicated to you.

Ok. I got something for Teng Han Liang. =)

My brother and I went to Genting Highlands with my grandparents.

Ok random kiddo facts I picked up from friends and the crazy ideas we thought up as kids.

When I was a kid, I thought...

That when I eat a watermelon seed, A watermelon tree/plant will grow on my head.
-Teng Han Liang & Peng Han Hwa (Nonsense brothers. Since when watermelon grows on trees?)

I should never step on the lines of the tiles in the shopping centre or I'll get electrocuted.
-Ok I'm guilty of this one. =P

I should not go near clowns.
-Reasonable enough, Stephanie.

I may not seem like the person who likes kids, but I think we shouldn't hate them. They are innocent although they poop and make bollocks of noise. Where do we all come from? The idiots...

Compassion Is What The World Needs

2007-11-15T19:43:00.000-08:00

Compassion...
慈心...
Medeleven...
Mitleid...
Οίκτος...
Pietà...
同情...
연민...
Участливость...
Compasión...

Is what the world needs to give and receive

A collection of photos from the few trips we made to Australia. Stephanie, I doubt you're online since you're so busy now but look, I know I whine a lot but there's the beautiful side of Australia I sometimes forget to see. These photos were taken by my dad, and I'm proud to say they put many photographers to shame. =)

My brother likes to smirk. :/

Great Ocean road.

Taken up in the St. Kilda wharf.

It's either the tree upside down or it's the weird statue. CBD area, near Collins St.

Forget The Blood Red Feud

2007-11-12T05:39:00.000-08:00

My friend had a dream. A real dream while sleeping. Not the dream you have when you want to do something great.

Let my friend be named Josh.

The dream started like Josh's usual daily routine. Going to school and all. One night after having dinner with friends, he started walking back with them.

On a quiet road (not the kind where your bag gets snatched but a calmer one), they were walking and joking like the crazy group they were. There were two giggly girls, a sleepy head, a guy who pretended to be cool, a joker and a no nonsense girl. Josh was enjoying their company a lot. He never asked anything more than this.

A van passed by as they were sitting in a veranda in a park by the road. The van went quite far away and it came round again and stopped in front of the veranda. No one seemed to notice the van except Josh. Although in normal circumstances, it would pose as a large threat to him as it is a sign for robbery, abduction and harassment.

Things went foggy and everything around him stopped. The driver didn't look threatening.

He said, "God says it's time to return home to Him soon."
Josh weirdly didn't doubt this was happening but just looked at his lap. He knew that there was nothing wrong going home but he was feeling the tug of leaving his family and friends.

As if the driver knew what Josh as thinking, he said not unkindly and with a sad smile, "I said soon though, not now. You'll return home 3 weeks after the new year. There's still some time to do what you want to do here. I'll come back soon to pick you up."

The van had some happy kids on it and everyone on it was really happy. The old people were smiling at Josh from ear to ear.

After that, Josh spent his time with his loved ones like his retirement money. He didn't really do what he wanted to do like last time anymore. He just spent time more on the phone with his dad who usually went to the south to work. He also spent time on the phone more with a good friend. He was sad that he hadn't managed to talk to his best friend though like he used to though.

After a while, he seemed to be looking at a fast forward dream.
Time passes really quick when you want it to go slow and need more time.
His eyes grew blurry and hot when he knew he won't be seeing them soon or never. He never wept like this before. He wasn't sad for his life. He was sad and will miss this place.

Scenes of the time left flashed and passed him. The people around him didn't know why was he sad sometimes. The relationship with his best friend wasn't clear. Maybe they were like normal again. Maybe they were still ignoring each other.

At the last few moments, everyone, his friends and family -his loved ones were around him. Laughing and smiling. Joking with one another like in a gathering. Josh couldn't help but be choked in tears and laughter at the same time. Laughing. Yet with tears.

Time to go home.

Was he sad or happy?

Tears of joy?

Or laughter in sadness?

Josh woke up. It was a dream. There was tears on his pillow.
Although God's angel of death was a van driver, itt was so real after all. He never had a dream so real and touching before in a long time.

Like real life.

The night I attended the musical.

Somewhere in Balwyn. It was in the evening.

I don't like single shots actually. I like having people to take photo's with me.

Lastly, live life like you're dying. Make up. Don't keep you're anger before the sunsets. It breaks your heart.

Something I Lost

2007-10-28T23:24:00.000-07:00

What happened to this?
I never wanted it to be this way. I never could never hold a grudge. Especially to you guys. I feel that the whole thing is gonna just smash into tiny pieces beyond repair. I know it's my fault but my apology is not reaching anywhere. I hope it's possible to walk aligned again.

Freedom With A Price To Sell Your Soul

2007-10-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

A good song for a duet. Clarice, if you happen to read this. Just tell me when you're free. I need your expertise and help.

Zi Qian. Yeah, we are talking. We're still friends right?

Raya break has been an anti-climax after the exams. I can't blame anyone but me. Everyone found a job and I'm just bumming around. Yet, it is hard to find a suitable one when I can't work in F & B outlets.

But I need the money though. I can't ask from my parents for this case.

我は止めません。苦痛について忘れません。

Let me look up and find hope. A source of never ending hope.

I'm just waiting for the 22nd.

II Member of The Jouissance Ceremony, lend me your joy and hope.

A Different Shade of Feeling

2007-10-03T00:47:00.000-07:00

Exams... almost over.

Something I'm probably gonna look at for a long time to come.

Anger Sadness Love Happy

Those are just about the 4 basic emotions we develop as a kid.

But when we're older...

Anger Lustifulness Malice Deceit Sadness Loss of Hope Bitter-sweet feeling Love Happy

We change. Other impurities come along. The plain emotions look the same and they are diminished. Why do we lie? I know we do when we're younger but... why are we lying for severe reasons? Are there reasons for doing dumb stuff like boozing and smoking at this age excessively?

For me, there is no age when you reach this age. A foolish person can be also 50. Yet a wise person can be just 10. It's never too late to turn back. But don't think you have so much time.

Wow. This year really passed fast.

Gotta run.

XXVI Member of The Revolution of Unpeace. Let your anger pass.

A Taciturn Beside You

2007-09-02T03:05:00.000-07:00

I think I have been absent for about... 1 month from this blog.

I haven't posted about the Jamboree or the Australian trip during the holidays.

It's the exams soon. No time or I should say there's more responsibilities that I must perform.

"A responsibility that is so different and not of age to bear. "

Yeah, you're right Stephanie. I can't really share my secrets in open public and I realise how open this space is.

I'm secretive?

Actually yeno. (Yes+no=yeno) Haha. A lame moment.

I don't even know how to respond to that statement.

I actually want to tell but it's just so hard to trust someone. Not that I don't trust "you". Honest. It's just this feeling that you want to be free from this burden.

Maybe it was the situation that stopped me.
Maybe it was the person beside you that prevented me.
Maybe it's just me.

I'll just correct myself.

*Ying Ling. I really need that Italian Job from you at the day of the airport.

*May. I don't think I can come to the reunion. I know. It sucks.

*Jun Hsien. I don't think you understand why, but I'm really sorry. Just take it and don't ask why. Please.

Verocity Of "The Matter"

2007-07-23T22:43:00.000-07:00

Our drama. These are a great bunch of people. Our great collaborated effort.

Not that a bunch of flowers that meaning though. Haha. I know I'm lame.

Our first grown up moment. That's my bow tie by the way Vinser.

I love my class.

It's two days away from the trip. Can't wait. My people will miss me for two weeks. Haha kidding la.

I had many opinions from people about "people". You sometimes just need some insight about stuff. Wisdom.

Haha. No Micheal. I'm no wiseman.

Argh. I need to pack more disposable undies. =>

Bryan here over and out for two weeks. Cheerios.

2007-07-10T23:08:00.000-07:00

Secrets By The Balcony. Past The Veils of Lies.

It was Vinser's surprise party last Saturday.

Absolutely under his nose.

Hot. That's what the weather was. I'm grateful. More than grateful to have such perfect weather when I really hate to see it rain on that day.

That persistent jackass wanted to go down to have a drink when we weren't ready and trust me... it wasn't easy to persuade anyone to stay on to play a few more sets when the sun was shinning brightly on our backs.

It was an utmost satisfaction after when we went down to the cafeteria and we met Sam and the rest of the reception of people.

=)

I'll save him the embarrassing moments and go to the fun parts.

I know it sounds so wrong but... it feels like Laguna Beach here. Haha.

London Bridge is falling down... my fair lady.

Yes... an emo pose.

Yes disgusting. Han Liang, please control yourself.

Yeah... Sarah you're right. Friendship when you reach high school becomes superficial and when something real comes by... It's a gem.

I was thoroughly happy that my friends have this ability to talk so freely.

And no, Han Liang. You're not a daisy.

A Play With No Pause

2007-07-05T23:31:00.000-07:00

We finally finished the drama.

The coordination was a bit off but we made it.

Even though if we didn't win, victory is won in the fun our class had. I mean that even though it was a competition, we just had our fun just making it happen. I think that's what really mattered. The singing, cheesy moments and all the wacky fighting moments. Haha. I know I won't make a good action or stunt actor.

Kudos to our class for making this real. It was just the unity we had.

Not only that, our class was the only class which did a lot of camwhoring. Haha. Pictures coming up soon.

Secret.
An organisation is happening under someone's nose.
It wouldn't count if I said it aloud and clear wouldn't it?
It will be known to the public soon.

2007-07-05T00:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday My Friend.

You're 16... Be more cool by not ban cooling haha.

No names given.

Friendship, A Scion Of Royalty

2007-06-27T00:17:00.000-07:00

Did you read the article that Malaysia has too holidays? I have to agree with that. I mean why do we need a holiday for the most useless reasons?
On the other hand, I like it for the siesta or relaxing day I'm gonna have. =)

If I had my way... there should be a day for remembering your friends.

Friend's Day.

No presents. It's a day to spend with your friends. Friends that you speak eye to eye and no hidden skeletons in your closets.

A captured moment says more than a thousand words.

Posers alert. Haha.

I don't get the look on the guy on the left. Zhuo Li you mastered the art of posing.

Observe Vinser and Han Liang's constipated faces.

My class. Some place I'm proud of being in. Knowing these wacky and crazy people really was a joy. Something hard for me to forget.

P.s. Sorry Stephanie about that shot.

I Rest My Case

2007-06-18T22:46:00.000-07:00

I've been really emotionally, physically and spiritually exhausted. Losing a loved one is really like ripping your heart out isn't it? Just give me the moment and talk me out of this. Just like jumping off the high you had.

My best friend was an idiot and didn't bother to listen. So much for morale support. Well... I was pissed but I guess it went dandy at the end of the day. That's what friends are for isn't it?

Let's talk about listening...
1. One quality that most people really lack.
2. It's essential to maintain a relationship... any type for that matter.
3. The most attentive person can associate with many people.
4. It makes the other person feel that they're heard and appreciated.
5. It is when you do not talk when the other is talking but you can talk and let the other listen when he/she's done.
6. You can't listen when you talk.
7. Something that requires compassion. Do you have compassion? A small thing to ponder on.
8. It's helping the other person to clear his/her mind.
9. Teenagers really want their parents to listen but both parents and adolescent do not listen to each other.
10. Something that I really want someone to do.

I & V. That's all I'm saying.

Great... double tags.
By May.

Rules : For those who have been tagged, you are required to write a story about one of your crushes, be it a current or a previous crush. To be exactly different from the common tags, there are no questions imposed this time. All you have to do is to write a story about him/her. Also, 5 persons will need to be tagged at the end of the post. You must post up these rules before you start writing.

I'm really not in the mood now for that. But... just out of respect for you ok... May. I know the world is curious.

Well... Let's say Mr. Bryan Yong Hoe isn't a busy man flitting around and picking up girls. He also has been really fussy and not many girls his type comes around. One day, when this girl come... It wasn't like a bang but it was something gradual.

Well... no such thing as a Happy Fairy Tail Ending. I have this bitter sweet story. It just didn't end up well. I guess I'm being very ambiguous and vague. So there's no questions answered.

By Stephanie.
5 THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG (school bag)
-My pencil case since standard 4. A lot of memories ok but the zip is coming apart. Great.
-Books. I know I bring more books than the usual people who leave their stuff in school. Haih... I learnt a lesson when my English textbook went missing.
-Tie.
-Waterbottle. I like my Puma bottle. So sleek and triangular.
-Lot and lots of music scores on music days.

5 THINGS FOUND INSIDE UR PURSE/WALLET
-Money. Not a lot. Don't like to bring out too much.
-Privilege cards. A lot of these are for watching free movies.
-Credit card. I know at this age I shouldn't but I rarely use it unless for emergency.
-Cross.
-A picture. My love ones. Not saying who.

5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM
-I pod. Yeah right. I rarely use that thing.
-Bed. Yeah... I know not many people get the privilege to own a queen size bed.
-Desk. So wide.
-A violin I borrowed from a someone. Eh... Lisa, sorry I'll give it back to you when I know how to play Canon in D with that.
-Bible.

5 THINGS UR CURRENTLY INTO
-Getting my arse out of this mess that was dropped onto me.
-Practising for ABRSM Piano Exam.
-Doing drama. We bungaraians are not kiasu ok.
-Mamaking. Eh... I found this place where milo ice only 70 cents.
-Spoiling movies for people.

Brian... wasn't that juicy knowledge? Your favourite screen star died in the movie. Some hot blonde I heard. Mwahahaha.

I won't tag anyone. I'm lazy and I know they're lazy also.

Lame joke of the day.
by Han Liang.

Han Liang: Eh... I wonder whether our chromosomes dance or not?
Bryan: What makes you think of that? (Whispers to himself that this other guys needs a shrink)
Han Liang: Well... If you're a diploid you can have a partner to dance right? (says it like it's the most obvious thing in the world)

It was after Biology class and I do not blame him for the brain damage.

Parody Video of Paris Hilton. Hilarious. Just a word of caution it's rated PG.

XVIIth member of the Conundrum

Fantaise's Repertoire

2007-06-08T05:59:00.002-07:00

I went to Genting last night and came back last night. Something impromtu. The food and service wasn't really great. We ate there because it was renovated and it came to a surprise since I haven't been there for donkey years.

I read all kinds of blogs. Sarcastic, flowery------>Jun Hsien, emotional, full of philosophy and etcetera. A blog shows your face or more likely I would say a mask. A fake part of you.

There's this one kind of blog though that really captures me.

1. It was one of the more honest and out of the heart posts I came by the blogosphere.
2. It didn't show self indulgence.
3. Child like innocence and trust towards people.

I found a friend who has the same taste in music. Haha.

A tag.
List down a common category of things from A-Z.
Can be anything as long it's not the same as the previous tagger.
Places.

Afghanistan
Bangladesh
Chile
Denmark
Ethiopia
Finland
Germany
Holland
India
Japan

Kiev, Capital of Ukraine. Don't ask me how I know this.

Lithuania
Madrid
Norway
Oslo, Capital of Scandinavia
Papua New Guinea
Quebec, State in Canada
Reykjavik, Capital of Iceland
South Korea
Tunisia
Ulaan Bataar, Capital of Mongolia
Vatican City
Warsaw, Capital of Poland
X No idea. Unless you count Xi' an, China
Yugoslavia
Zimbabwe

I tag Wen Xian, Jun Hsien, Ying Ling, I Lyn and Stephanie.

I'll bet my socks the third person on that list will do clothes or designer labels. :)

Life's Testimony

2007-05-27T23:18:00.001-07:00

I am in a midst of daydreaming to the point where my face shows a tinge of nostalgia.

I have been walking down the memory lane lately.

Reflecting on my life.

Talking with God.

Have I been been bumming around? I really don't know.

Believe it or not, I went through a quarter of my life with resentment and rebellion. I was a tough cookie when I got to the age of 10. I was really mean to my brother and I find that I was just hating life and finding the world so unfair. Maybe that was teen angst arriving early. My mom and dad were just at the tip of the cliff. Looking back, I am really so so sorry. I was ungrateful. I was angry at everyone. I know it may not seem much because of my youth but these are your tender ages where your maturity develops.

It will be hard to change yourself when you are older. It's till the point where you just shut off.

-But-

If with patience, compassion and prayer; you can change a person. I really believe so.

By the time I reached secondary school, I am exposed to more than curricular discipline and homework like in Puai Chai. It was a horror just enduring standard 5 and 6. Even though it was UPSR I was struggling to keep my head above the water.

I am really different than who I was then. I learnt not to hate things. Sports, music and all aspects of life are tests.

Family Camp is coming up next. Yeah...

Difference in Sentiments

2007-05-18T20:10:00.000-07:00

这条路到我又单独地航行。我求求你不要离开这个生活给我慢慢地寻找我生活里的目的。你是我的朋友为何要伤我们两人之间的关系？虽然我们被距离分散，我以为海洋或灾难不会瓦解着美丽的友情。你答我好吗？你假装我的不存在是你骗你心所说的。我很想念你。

It's the post exam period now. I'm in a relaxed mode. Maybe not but there's something off my back and it's rewarding.

Relaxed. Yeah... haha. My cousin sister.

I've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Just an idea.

Do you think you made a difference in your life?
Or either the difference is just so trivial and small like making those people you call 'friends'?
Are they just flirts or whims of fancy?
They are not jewelery to decorate your room of life.
There's a lot of change in this school. Compare it when we're Form 1 or Form 2. There's big change. For the better?

I saw this old woman across the street. She was old. Age was prominent in her eyes. This young boy not a day older than 8 took her hand and walked her down the road. He talked to her. He made a stranger's day brighter. That was compassion.

Compassion makes a difference.
Not something that is for your personal gain.
Make a meaningful relationship while you can. You all make these jokes yeah they're fun but if it's all jokes then you're a clown living a joke of a year.
I know it's hard to be selfless but that's what compassion is all about.
We try. Try our best.

Candor & Verity Are My Camaradarie of Conduct

2007-05-11T19:12:00.000-07:00

Bold's for the truth.
Italic's for what you wished were true.
The fakes were left alone

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days. sad...isn't it... I don't gave astro and it's the exams.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. yeah... four eyes.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I’ve been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy. Don't want to grow a wooden nose like Pinocchio
I curse.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. Yeah... I wish I had sisters and another brother.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. Don't you want to know...
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. That's if I'm not pan cool or PMS-ing. Haha. No I don't pan cool.
I have a lot of friends.
I'm currently single. And yes therefore available. Ladies.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. Yeah. Long distance calls are ex. That's what skype is for. Long story cut short.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. For my stuff not those junk Ying Ling finds in Victoria's Secret and those prissy shops.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer. To pick up girls? I'm just good at catching and a bit of something here and there.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone. I had to work hard for it.
I believe in God. Absolutely.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before. Er, long stories also.
I want to have children in the future. Like duh? And please, no caesarean. And minimum 4. Haha kidding la.
I have changed a diaper before. Yeah. Many cousins. All babies.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before. -smiles-
I’m not allergic to anything. Except caffeine
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends. Really grey area... Not suicidal though.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. Some prick introduced the campfire song song.
I am happy at this moment! Nah. Exams. Sejarah.
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. Yeah which was only less than a story high into a river.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument. Piano.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs. Yeah my butt can't take it.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages. German frankfurters are real tasty. No wrong impressions I hope.
I love kisses. Hershey's? Haha. Avoiding...
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. You can't? Weirdo.
I can’t whistle. Never could do it.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. My granddad plays jazz for a lounge last time.
I wear a toe ring.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. Unless you're some kind of self-depressed emo goth then you don't. What? Even people have to feel. I mean even evil people like to be happy. I mean you don't want to be sad all the time...
I am an adrenaline junkie…

I tag
Wen Xian. Jun Hsien. Yi May.

Playing Truant. How Naughty.

2007-04-30T19:51:00.000-07:00

I know. Been very busy.
My birthday.

Don't know why her mouth is opened so big.

Natasha.... haha

Guess who?

I didn't opt for this. This happened because of Vinser
and Samantha's kiasuness.

Stephanie... what would you say if I have something to threat you with? Haha. They all had to submit to Sarah's orders and act like monkeys chanting nonsense. I was laughing my ass off this one.

Thanks guys for the party.

Inertia Is Augmented

2007-04-10T06:12:00.001-07:00

The words hit me like heavy rain pouring heaven's tears. I pretended I was fine but sub-consciously I knew I wasn't. The male ego is a dangerous thing to own. In account, it controls us more than testosterone has a grip on our sexual drives. Quoted by Bryan, minor professor to Sarahlogy.

These days I know I have been slacking because instead of Natasha hearing my ebullient voice for Add Math homework which now I've been leeching it off from Grace and Zhou Li.

Inertia.

Physics as usual was the moment we all are in Limbo.So I paid attention this time ok. I listened till the part teacher explained the 1st law of Newton. Everyone was engrossed till me Bryan Yong Hoe came up with my 1st law of Physics.

Inertia is this invisible mean girl like Sarah who pushes you some more when the car slows down.

According to those genii (plural to genius), Inertia is when the car stops when moving, you still move forward.

I know, the lameness I concoct when my mind runs wild. Sorry guys cannot tahan la to break the strain in the midst of all the concentration.

Undefined Desposition & Mentality

2007-04-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

Tell me Jun Hsien. I know I'm clumsy.

Do you guys know what's a thesaurus?

Well, my dear friend Han Liang equated it with...

A dinosaur.
According to Han Liangsics, Thesaurus=Dinosaur
Must cut him some slack. We're hanging out too much with a mental dystrophy patient. Poor Han Hwa. Or more likely poor us.

Lately, he's seemed to speed up and catch up with our intellectual level. Yeah. It's possible. For example, one day, it was a seemingly normal day when we're all happy and normal.

Situation 1

"Bryan, 140-40-30-50=20 la. How you get a negative?
-Silence-

Situation 2

"...I'm hungry. I haven't ate yet."
"笨蛋. It's I havent eaten yet la 家俊."

By the way, situation 1 was in Modern Math quiz and he wanted to sit beside me to copy my answers.

Han Liang we both know who this 家俊 is right?

The conclusion? Things are not what they always seem to be. This guy's growing up mentally and at the rate of it, it scares us.

No matter what Han Hwa you're still our... good mental friend

Delibration of Your Heart

2007-03-28T06:46:00.000-07:00

What in the world were you thinking about? How could you do that?
I know. Our youth makes us seem so much rash in thinking.

Your actions make me seem to make me distant. I see our differences. You just look past it. I'll correct myself and make His standards.

Swearing makes you cooler? Makes you not stand out? Think. Think again. Just listen to yourself. I wonder whether you know this. Do you know how you sound like.

Don't do anything rash.

Don't bother to listen to this insipid and lackluster lament of mine.

Please. I don't want to change your character. You may not want the change. But the third part of the Trinity will tell you. The spirit beside your conscience will tell you. Are you listening hard?

A lament from a desolated soul.

My Cookie Was Peculated

2007-03-23T22:30:00.000-07:00

Name one person who made you smile last night.

A secret to be kept to the grave. My brother also.

What were you doing at 8.00 this morning?

In school doing Add Math and studying Biology

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

Eating... Tom yam from last night's left overs.

What was something that happened to you in 2006?

I had plastic surgery...

What is the last thing you said aloud?

I want that cookie.

How many different drinks did you drink today?

Two. Milo and water.

What colour is your hairbrush?

No hair brush.

What was the last thing you paid for?

The cookie I bought from a friend

Where have you been last night?

My room. Nothing else so bugger off.

What color is your front door?

Brown. A wood brown.

Where do you keep your change?

In the secret compartment in my undies, happy?

What was the weather like today?

Gloomy. Like my PMSing mood. Add Math+Biology=PMS/28th day of menstrual cycle (I may be wrong about this)

What is the best ice-cream flavour?

Vanilla. Nothing on it and untainted.

What is something you are excited about?

I want that cookie.

Do you want to cut your hair?

I just did. I look like a budak.

Are you over the age of 25?

No but people say I look old.

Do you talk a lot?

If you want to talk about cookies. Tian Ming, I want my cookies back.

Do you watch the O.C?

No. I don't watch EMO shows.

Does your screen name have an "x" in it?

No. I'm no Bryanx. Does that make me sound cool?

Do you know anyone named Steven?

No.

Do you make up your own words?

Koochimoolah (awkward love moments or something weird). Trunkies? No that's Keira's word.

Random Random!

Are you typically a jealous person?

No but if you take my cookie, you will pay.

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "A":

Audrey.

Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "K":

Keira.

Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?

Keira. Why are you buggering me woman? You are sucking up my air.

What did the last message you received say?

I have your cookie

Do you chew on your straw?

No. Why? Is it because I don't have any crack or pot to smoke?

Do you have curly hair?

No.

Where is the next place you're going?

KL.

Who is the rudest person in your life?

My despicable aunt. 22 years old versus 16 year old. Get your fiance and suck his oxygen.

What is the last thing you ate?

Tomyam rice.

Is marriage in your future?

Yes. I've been through this question and everyone is asking why I want to get married at 23.

What is the best movie you've seen in the last 2 weeks?

Mr Bean On A Holiday. That's the only one I watched for a very long time.

Is there anyone you like right now?

You don't know. I don't know. I shall tell no lies.

When was the last time you did the dishes. be honest

Just now. My tomyam rice bowl?

Are you currently depressed?

Yes in fact. I'm on antidepressants called Fluoxetine and Venlaflaxine. My best friends.

Why did you answer and post this survey?

Because I was requested by May. Thank you. I'm honoured.

Pretense Is Invalid. Tell Me From Afar

2007-03-19T23:06:00.000-07:00

Pre Jamboree camp had me busted. I managed to meet up with some people everywhere.

My group for now till the jamboree. Geoffrey, Me (Dong Goi), Yie-Ern, Clarine (Sakkai), May, Shannon, Nicholas, Jun Hsien and Natalie.

Taman S.E.A. people are freaks. We have about 15 people sent for this jamboree. Not the most though.

We had this Sir... The Worst Person in The World according to Kim Sir Collin Khoo. Not so bad la... Or maybe he is. You judge yourself la.

We had some affairs involved also. With a certain people from near and afar.

To The Heavans & Down From Haven

2007-03-14T04:36:00.000-07:00

CF camp is over. I'm back. I'm physically exhausted but spiritually refreshed. It was something different this time. Not infatuation to Jesus but beyond that.

I didn't hang out with the people of my age but rather with the older ones and those kuchi frys. I was dorm leader and Christine's assistant for devotional groups. Sleep was nearly impossible. I repeat, sleep is nearly impossible. Every single miserable year I end up with two things. Someone in my dorm has to snore loudly. Not their fault actually. If I slept earlier than them, I think I'll snore because of the fatigue.

Every year, my group has to produce girls for a bimbo act. I know what you're thinking of. Not that the girls are bimbos.

I had a few meaningful talks with people I didn't really talk to. I surprise myself sometimes. I had a listening ear for their thoughts while they listened to me also. This really means something to me. It was sincere. I feel happy.

The response for worship of the first few sessions weren't that good until the last night. I played!!! =) That's not the point. I syok sendiri only. For the moonlight session I was dragged by this spicy chick while I dragged along the tired and exhausted chick.

May Wan (spicy chick), Me and Clarice (Tired chick)

Yeah. May Wan was jumping up and down and was super duper hyper. On the other hand Clarice was like... urm tired.

Let me introduce to you a good friend of mine. She left school and she really touched my heart. She's been accompanying me throughout my Form 1 and 2 days of spiritual walk.

Me and Tze Nie

Thank you for walking with me this lonely and narrow road.

谢谢你给我这个机会。可是，为什么你给我这个机会当你知道我对你不完全真真的真心。你的爱绝对不能比别人的爱。你真是宇宙里第一。你真是不肯放弃我虽然我的罪孽太多至不能在数算了。真是感谢你。我其实不值得被你牺牲你的生命。我真的不能了解你为何要牺牲你的生命给我。

My Angel Sings

2007-03-07T22:54:00.002-08:00

I've been for so many practices this week that my ass is busted from sitting down on the piano stool.

The Sunday's performance was great. But the pay wasn't great. Haha.

Someone could really reach real high without even stretching much. Wow. She's an angel.

I was kinda down on Wednesday but Umesh said something that really made my day. Thanks. Some things come during the unpredictable times and unseen corners.

Speaking of times and moments, Stephanie said something that made me wonder.

"It really is annoying when you tell people a joke or something and the effect is not the same and the effect isn't there. The moment's gone."

Yeah. She made me think about how should I put it. That person didn't hear me. Not her fault. Maybe it was meant to go to the grave with me. It never existed.

我现在感到对自己很失望。我怎么样会对她那么冷静？真是对不起。
我应该忘记过了的事情。

This's So Pukka

2007-02-28T23:11:00.000-08:00

Words we picked up from the dictionary.
Gumption- Courage and resourcefulness
Aphrodisiac- Something edible that stimulates sexual desire
Pukka- Genuine or excellent
Farinaceous- Starchy

Layer 1: On the Outside

Name: Bryan Yong Hoe
Birth Date: April 20th 1991
Current Status: Dreamy... of chocolates saturated with romance and a drop of ignorance (can you imagine?)
Eye Color: Dark brown
Hair Color: Black
Righty or Lefty: Right handed

Layer 2: On the Inside

My Heritage: Heng Hwa and Cantonese-Dad's side. Baba Nyonya and Portugese on my mom's side.
My Fears: Leaving my love ones.
My Weaknesses: Other people's sadness and pain. I feel for them
My Perfect Pizza: Salami cheese and onions. =P

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

My thoughts first waking up: Does the fridge, like have any breakfast?
My bedtime: Er.. I know I sleep real early compared to others. Like 11?
My most missed memory: Times being together with people.

Layer 4: My Pick

Pepsi or Coke: Neither. They both are too buzzy for my throat.
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Single. I can control my temptations well.
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: Neither. Caffeine makes me slightly dizzy. Alergic.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee: None for me.

Layer 5: Do you…

Smoke: Yup I do in fact. I distribute Crack widely and openly. Like duh...
Curse: Nope. I'm a saint. Unless you count @#$@#...
Take a shower: Yes in fact. I wash myself with vintage chardonnay white wine only.
Have a crush: Nope. I don't believe in love at first sight.
Think you’ve been in love: Er... why are you asking me mushy questions.
Go to school: Nope. I study in a cave where my teacher is a grizzly bear.
Want to get married: Yes.
Believe in yourself: Yeah.
Think you’re a health freak: Yeah but just to annoy others.

Layer 6: In the past

Drank Alcohol: Nope. I'm a teetotaler.
Gone to the mall: Duh...
Been on stage: Yes. Many times.
Eaten sushi: Yes.
Dyed your hair: I'm not vain.

Layer 7: Have you ever…
Played a stripping game: What dirty games I play is none of your beeswax.
Changed who you were to fit in: No. The world sets their own standards whereas I have mine.

Layer 8: Age you’re hoping…
To be married: 23 is the perfect age.

Layer 9: In a girl...
Best eye color: Dark brown?
Best hair color: As long she doesn't dye exotic colours.
Short hair or long hair: Slightly longer than shoulder lenght.

Layer 10: What were you doing…
A minute ago: Doing this...
1 hour ago: Showering? You want details?
4.5 hours ago: In school
1 Month ago: You tell me.
1 Year ago: You people better get a better batch of better questions which better make better sense.

Layer 11: Finish the sentences…
I love: the things in life which doesn't seem to matter to the world.
I feel: not EMO. Dreamy.
I hate: injustice
I hide: my emotions
I miss: times before.
I need: to take a bath.

Layer 12: Tag 5 people…
[1] People
[2] that hasn't
[3] done
[4] this yet but are
[5] in my links.
No obligations. ;)

My Flight To Freedom's Wings

2007-02-26T22:07:00.000-08:00

When I wonder, would be the moment I'd be free from this pain and struggle in my life? God, please forgive me and help me to let go.

I went out with Lee Keng last Saturday. She looks different now.

We went to the batting cages. Not too bad.

We learned about colours today. I learnt that our brains are not blue.

Sarah: What matter is our brain ah? Blue?
Bryan: Nope your brain is blue but ours is pink.

We learnt a vital lesson in Sarahlogy today. As we learnt that guys with two dimples are gay. Yup, that's what we Malaysians learn in school and we're proud of it.

Resecta Was Forgotten

2007-02-19T15:09:00.000-08:00

恭喜发财
I would assume that saying Happy Chinese New Year would be a usual way to greet people. There's the exception when you're single on Valentine's day not so long ago. Not that I'm mopping about it...

Just back from Kuantan. Surfing was lousy there. The waves were soppy. The whole thing was pathetic. It was really tiring swimming out while I get soppy waves. At the end of the three days, I was so washed up for only 6 worthwhile waves. Nope, no beach babes. All old aunties and uncles from Germany. Relatives are either too old or too young to hang out with. I was just telling myself in my mind just pay your respects and get over with it.

Well, the Mahjong tables are gonna be set up tonight... so maybe Chinese New Year isn't so bad after all.

Funzionare

2007-02-07T17:47:00.000-08:00

I feel that I'm always running in my life. For the better and for the worse. I don't know when will I come to a stop. There's this big piece of me missing. I brave myself when it's the worst. I won't run anymore. I never did really ran or more likely I couldn't.

This week has stopped me being so disappointed. I still think of it at night though. Stop my pain. I need stronger emotion heart ache stoppers like Panadol or Asprin. I need something like Morphine.

Yawn. I'm really tired for the drama practices.

Vinser>>> you're really so thick skinned enough to say you're the best leading actor of all the classes.

Jun Hsien>>> We must win your class. if we do win ah... I'll kick my own ass. I rather frankly prefer you as the best leading actor of all the classes than my dog.

cheerios.

The Ungratified Person Upstairs

2007-02-03T22:20:00.000-08:00

Poor me. I'm not wallowing in self pity. I sometimes think that other or everyone is better than me. I'm not kiasu either. I just feel so low yet not unconfident.
She's better.

He's better looking.
They're so much better off in life.
That guy is too rich for his own good.
She's smarter.
His life is so smooth.
That person gets to go out more than I do.

I feel so down sometimes because of this, Maybe I'm just setting too high standards for myself. I know only God will set this standards for me. He looks at me like I'm worthy to dying on the cross for. I thank You for at least this You for appreciating me. I know some or a few do but I know we as humans are sometimes being very superficial and casual friends. I know i should be more grateful and thank God for this life of mine. I'm not down or EMO. I know a few people will get worried and start sulking. Ok, fine. I admit I like you all sulking at me. So attention seeking right?

Parents are back. Mom had a good time sitting in a Rolce Royce limo. No shopping in Beverly Hills for her.nyeh nyeh.

The Last Night of The First Month

2007-02-01T09:29:00.000-08:00

She's gone also. Everyone seems to Australia. I miss them people. I miss her also. I'll be honest and happy no matter what happens. I'm ok and fine here.

Well the last few days have been hectic. The syllabus is ok but the test and the reports are getting tiring.

I taught a few people to give 'good' smses. So there's a credit for me.

I'm emotionally up and down like a roller coaster. Please forgive me for being so hyper and snappy during some times. Not PMS mind you.

I support Malaysia but not the statement 'Malaysia Boleh' >>> stupid MB.

School guys knows this.

Adios

2007-01-24T13:51:00.000-08:00

Bye Wen Xian. We'll really really miss you. After school there's no one to insult anymore. I really couldn't tahan seeing you so sad like that. I hope you enjoyed the party and the presents. Adelaide can't have anyone as fun as our gang.

This week has been a long week. Lots of reports to do yet I did finish them in time.

Someone was man enough to cry. I tried and I did. (Like a Korean drama)

I-Lyn!! What's the coach's number?

[bida bonafida]

Beratings From The Inside

2007-01-16T14:41:00.000-08:00

I feel the pain that others feel. The people suffering in Africa. The old lady suffering from spinal oestoporosis next door. I thank God for this gift even though I feel their pains but to only be aware. I feel the pain of a confident person who puts an act but is crying in the inside. I feel the sadness in the introverted and the low confidence guy I see in class. I am happy to share their pains. I am glad to share the pain of a friend who needs a friend. I am honoured.

Today, I had the most sincere appraisels in my life. Three persons told me 3 sincere things that I really apreciate. Thank you God for these people. Not only that, they told me 3 sincere and constructable criticisms that really encouraged me. I thank you.

I put the praise behind my head to focus and not show my attitude.

Booyeah.

I'm Missing The Smell of Your Eau de Parfum On Your Neck.

2007-01-02T10:36:00.000-08:00

4 Bunga Raya will be my class for this year and next year. We are stuck with each other till death (SPM) do us part. Plus, we're stuck with every beloved teacher to the end too.

Let's start introducing a few of my venerated teachers.
Chemistry- Pn. Cheong Li Na
Biology- Pn. Yip
Physics- Miss Wong
Additional Math- Pn. Siew
Modern Math and class teacher- Mr. Amarasingam
EST- Pn. Vasanthy
English- Pn. Ivonne
B.M.- Pn. Hanim
P. Moral- Pn. Roziha
Sejarah- Pn. Faridah

My class is not bad. It's in the middle of 4A and 4C (literaly). 4A and us have the same brain power and academic level. In terms of socialability and being a people's people, they have a mondo problem. On the other end of the extreme chart, 4C is in havoc and chaos at every single moment. Their teachers are a scare though.

Pn. Yip was a model before and I can tell you that she wears a different outfit everyday of the year. (Yes, she has more shoes than you would ever have Ying Ling.) She has a funny hair style though. Cut straight in the front like a Jap and the sides to the back like a Cleopatra. Miss Wong is just nice. That's why probably I don't despise Physics so badly Brian. Vasnthy's first impressions aren't that fabulous but she's nice. We all sucked up to her today when she called for an introduction one by one.

"My name is Bryan. EST is my favourite subject because I have such a gorgeous and good teacher like you."
"You are my most favourite teacher."
"EST rocks."

Wow. I didn't know my class and I are such good suck ups.

2006-12-29T17:00:00.000-08:00

Photo's of Bali

Messy Pie. Langkawi, Bali and PMR.

2006-12-28T17:20:00.000-08:00

This has been a long month but in a way it was real short. I'm contradicting myself. Bugger it. But it is true. I was waiting for my PMR results and it was a real long wait. But the holidays, Langkawi SG trip and Bali was real short.

Langkawi was... ker-ray-zee. We practically were mental and nuts through out the whole trip. We all missed you there I-Lyn. We ate in Cactus (the bistro across the hotel) for almost every dinner. The food there was cheap, good and it arrived a bit late. The weather was hot and windy at Mama Nature's mood. Jason made us play soccer almost everyday. You should see the look on his face when we all beat him at it. The trip was really fast and it just came to an abrubt halt at the end of it. Just the sum of everything... we all enjoyed each other's friendship and company. bliss...

Bali was...fer-ru-ty-tu-tti. Everyday we were eating fruits for lunch, breakfast and dinner. It was either mango, banana or watermelon. I was surfing for almost half of the trip. I was there for 8 days. So you can imagine me... looking like something came out of the oven a little late. 黑蕉. 姐姐 Jeniffer and Auntie Jinn Hwa came half way in out trip and added more noise to our din. The sun was out every single day and you know... me black like nobody's buisness. harhar. I also did some Lara Croft action. Remember the part of the show in Tomb Raider 1 when Angelina Jolie was like jumping while being suspended with two ropes? I did that. So action la. I was surprised I was so sporting at that time. Too bad I didn't take any photos.

PMR results day was... undescribable. The unexpected came and I took it graciously (I accepted it ok!!!). The same came for my buddies... so we're on the same boat. You guys will be kinda surprised at my results. Sad you know.

Pictures for Langkawi and Bali will come shortly after this organized and tidy. cheerios.

Gone For Christmas

2006-12-12T14:04:00.000-08:00

Sadly, I'll be gone for the Christmas. This Friday, I'm going to Langkawi with my SG. After I get back it's only for a day. Then it'll be off to Bali.

I'll just leave you all a Christmas note.

I'll start off with my school peers first then. Christmas is a time when Jesus was born. He came to earth to save us from the evils of the world and out sins. He died on the cross later on and we can have eternal life.

To The MashiMaro Lover...
The MashiMaro (hh) is really actually honoured to be liked by you even though he ignored you a bit. Sorry I didn't meet you up for Christmas. Thanks for being my friend. Your problems are mine to help you. And when I'm frustrated, (not sexually mind you all.) you help me. Happy Holidays.

To MashiMaro...
You sat with me this and last year but I tell you... You sometimes have been really not seng mok (observant and insensitive). For these two years, you have been copying my homework, my test answers and getting me to repeat what teacher said. You have been a lazy bum for the year and you know it. Although so, you have been a friend to me. Your corny jokes make everyone laugh and you were always better in soccer than me. But I've always been better at brains. =) Learn not to ignore people even though you can't face them and you don't have feelings for that person. Life moves on you idiot. I hope you will get good results after this whole year of lazing.

To Han Liang...
You are an @$$. But I suppose you did what you think was right. Our alluring moniter who wears a polka dotted bra that you so innocently spotted is not for you. You dump your problems on me like you throw your stinky laundrey. Thanks for sharing your problems.

To The ex-Taman S.E.A.-er Lee Keng,
You very fat hou sometimes you know. Stop flirting with that guy wearing the red shirt working next door. Thanks for supporting me and encouraging me.

To Liao YY,
You very quiet lo... but this year after sitting with Han Liang, you are seriously worthy of a big mouth award. You really matured this year and I was really surprised you stood something for once that was right. Merry Christmas.

To Vinser,
You have so many more problems than anyone in this world don't you? Don't be so fickle minded la. Decide on what you really want to do. Leave her and start a new life. Thanks for temaning me to be a good boy.

To Wen Xian,
You are the most sam pat and funniest person I know. So sad you are spending the holidays and studying in Adelaide. Sorry I insult you so much. Merry Christmas.

That'll do for school. These holiday greetings are for the church people.

To Audrey,
Aren't you so honoured for being no.1? Well thanks for teaching me piano and being my friend when I was that kuchi-fry in SSS. It's sad that I don't get to talk to you more often. You always had a ear for me. Thanks and Merry Christmas.

To my ex-wife in Maryland, Ying Ling,
Thanks for laughing and being lame with me. Like me, you're missing Christmas here. Sad isn't it? Get me some undies for Christmas!!!

To the Mrs. Vice President,
Thanks for being so sincere. Although you're cold sometimes, you can get quite heated up sometimes. Thanks for telling me also that I didn't piss a girl off. Thanks for being so emphatic. Thanks for being patient with me. Merry Christmas.

To Jason Kok,
Happy Holidays to you. Manchester United won with me predicting. You bugger, didn't have a Christmas party. You better organize one New Year party next year. See you in Langkawi.

To Mok, Liao, Kevin and See Yao,
Thanks for being monkeys with me. I seriously had a lot of monkeying fun this year thanks to Teacher Leslie. The Commenwealth Park trip was loads of fun and I like shooting leeches with salt water in my water gun. Thanks also for being my drummer, bassist, and guitarist. As for you See Yao, a person who likes to make monkey buisness.

To Carol and Su' Ryn,
Thanks for treating me as a younger brother. A pampered one who annoys you two a lot. Leaving SSS so soon. I'll miss you guys.

To Calvin Gan,
Thanks for being my makan buddy. You college student already la. Don't act like budak la. Merry Christmas.

My eyes are blury... I gotta pack my stuff for both trips also. See you all soon. I'll be back just in time to collect my PMR results.

Lesson #20: How To Buy Undies

2006-12-07T17:20:00.000-08:00

I'm back from Singapore. Don't ever, ever try to shop there even though there's a discount. I sat on the luge in Sentosa again and met up with my 姐姐's (older sisters) and did a lot of catching up.

Ok a random topic of the day since all the Youth Quakers are rotting away somewhere. Nah... just jealous.

How to buy underwear.
This is meant for guys... but the opposite sex is most welcome to learn how to buy more comfy undies for your guy friends or for me.

The thing about undies is... 100% cotton is a must for your comfort. This is needed especially if you're sitting through movies or in a plane to somewhere far like Tegucigalpa (capital of Costa Rica). Don't get those non strechy kind which will get displaced and will move to other places.

Size matters. Well, first things first. Your banana does not really do the talking for your undy size. The thing is your hips and your buttocks speaks like your momma here. NOTE TO WOMEN: The guy with the biggest under-wear isn't exactly your kinda big deal.

Colour yes, is a big deal. I prefer white. NOT black. But for some reason, I have more blackies than whities. Guys tend to wear more black. Nope... that's not macho now. White defines everything... quoted by Proffesor Bryan Yong Hoe p.h.d socialogy and garment specialization. Black is fine though if you know when to wear it. In the morning is a big no no. You wouldn't want that hot girl looking at black undies in the morning. Not a fresh start and a fresh colour if you get what I mean. Black at night is a ok and it goes well with jeans and cargo pants only. A variation of different colours can change the mood and vibes.

red... anger and rage. This may be interpreted wrongly.
polka dots of pink and white... girls enjoy some brave men sometimes. But take it from me, the spots complicate things.
purple... no, purple does not generate love in this case as it is known.
green... freshens your day up
orange... Su Ryn's favourite colour... but for me... utterly disgusting
pink... girls dig you

Types of underwear yes is the most important part of this talk. You wouldn't want to wear a bikini type if you've got a big ass.
Tanga are generaly not a good idea if you have bad legs to show.

Lastly, G-Strings are for special occasions only. Rashes are not a good thing. Make sure you get the sales girl to look at you model the undie and get her to find the right colour and sizes.

Cheerios.

Keira Knightly vs. Eva Green

2006-11-28T13:31:00.000-08:00

Introducing...Eva Green. The newest Bond girl acting as Vesper Lynd in Casino Royale.

I still like Keira Knightly in the matter of fact.

The reason I like these two alluring and prepossessing women are:

They posses that mysterious look which knocks any guys socks off.
They look good with mascara and eyeliner. Their eyes are like lasers!!!
They look enticing and beguiling with any kind of dress on them.

DISCLAIMER: I do not lust after these women who are beyond my reach and are way older than me.

A Rose for You

2006-11-22T16:23:00.000-08:00

There was a wedding last Saturday, I saved a rose for you when you're back. I still miss you.

SPMers are quite under a lot of pressure this week. Hard subjects... including MORAL That's the first and I'll make sure it will be the last exam I'll fail in ever.

Hillsong United came down here to SIB church to rock Meh-ley-see-uh. Their second last stop of their tour before they return to Oos-ter-rey-ria. I was on the balcony sitting on the chair watching the whole thing. I was clutching my seat tightly in case the balcony gave way. Seriously, the balcony was shaking.

Breathe Me

2006-11-22T10:47:00.000-08:00

I really miss you. Please come back soon.

I recently watched "The Exorcism of Emily Rose'. Frankly, I don't think it was very scary and it didn't scare the berjeebers out of me. It was really about a court case against the priest of a catholic church who exorcised a uni student and was sued for murderous negligence.

Brian Mok, you better learn all thes fancy words to win me in court.

Well, the only part that really scared the berjeebers out of me was when the father was asking the demon/s inside of Emily and she started convulging and said one, two, three, four, five, six quickly in tongues. She actually did a better job counting than the Japanese in the video!!!

This was based on a true story (that's what they say), Emily made a sacrifice to made this story heard all over the world. The demons tormented her and she died a painful and a cruel death with all her teeth broken.

But seriously, it made me think about the revalation, The Comming of Christ and other stuff.

That's what you get after watching these kind of movies.

cheerios...

2006-11-21T11:01:00.000-08:00

Lately, I feel that all the love of me has just been drained out. I mean, my passion isn' there anymore. I know, that can't be my reason. I know I should hold on and I should just shut up hold on tighter.

Currently, my piano practical exam is just next Saturday but me haven't really practiced yet. Can't seem to sit on that chair for long. But when it's two or three days from the exam... you probably won't see me anywhere else except on that chair.

I went camping recently in Commenwealth park with the whole form three of SSS exceptI-Lyn! Sorry la, but I supposed you had more *wink wink* fun there. To cap it all up, we had a good time eating barbecue or bruning it, setting up the tent when other people doesn't know how and jungle tracking. The best part of the whole time we were walking in the forest were getting leeches...yikes! and watching other people quiting... har har. I don't blame them though... The leeches were trying to get ahold of me but... I guess there's something wrong with me and my blood I got rejected... maybe to much sugar content or maybe... I'm an alien???

The night I spent there was ok except to the fact we had a live orchestra
lulling all of the audience there to sleep. Brian Mok played the flute, See Yau played the trombone and I think two other people beside my tent were playing a wind loose trumput and a cornet. Kidding la... Well, I looked terrible in the morning that's for sure. But me, as a lousy scout, am prepared to face such dangers. Conclusion, we all had fun and enjoyed each other's company.
Group Photo

Prince William, The Heir To The Throne

2006-11-14T14:21:00.000-08:00

After the long search for a skin for my blog, I gave up and settled for white. I went looking everywhere but was never satisfied with all the skins on blogskins.com.

Why white? I don't know either. I just have this affinity with this colour.

In English heraldry, white signified brightness, purity, virtue, and innocence.
White is the traditional color of bridal dress in both western (European) and Japanese weddings. In Western weddings, a white dress is thought to be symbolic of purity (the bride has not engaged in pre-marital sex). This is also said to be the symbolism of the veil.
White denotes peace.

I'm listening to Tracy Chapman now. Although her singing doesn't strike me as the best, her songs are inspirational. No comparisons to Dream Theater though.

I've watched Happy Feet last night with Uncle Robin and Auntie Jacqueline. Over dinner, he said something that stucked to my mind long after that. He said me and my brother were a metaphor of Prince William

and Prince Harry??? It was kinda true though, the older one responsible over the younger idiot while the younger idiot goes out and have fun.

Last Sunday I went to Sunway Pyramid to watch Accepted. Real American stuff in there. Rejected graduate to college student builds a college. Dumb blondes, dumb jocks and babes are all included. A real American movie.

Manities

2006-11-04T21:22:00.000-08:00

Everyone is so moody these days. Han Hwa is his usual childish self and doesn't want to talk to me. I-Lyn muttered something surprising and was so moody that whole night that we all were moody too. Well I think I will just go with the flow and be moody. I went to school that day for program emas just to know that only 50 or less Form 3s attended school. The best part was, I was a facilitator of a station of Scrabbles!!! YAY!!!. Some bugger fong fei kei and I was kinda pissed. Aigh... everybody, at least I mean the form 3s should be happy, but I guess people are so buggered and look as if Pmr is still not over yet.

Before I end, I want to leave you readers with a thought.

Are you in a relationship or just broken out of one?
Or either you're that princess in the tallest tower of the castle waiting for your prince?
Maybe you are the the frog in the pond waiting to be kissed.
Are you that person in your clicks waiting to be appreciated?
Does your friends fulfill you?
I feel that many people wants to be in a relationship or participate in their friend's activities because they think the other person/people will fulfil them.
I think otherwise.
Many people don't receive the love and attention so they go out and find it.
I know someone who was idiotic enough to push me away from his clicks just because the circle wasn't big enough.
He would laugh with people he doesn't agree with and will say things he doesn't normally say.
The bottomline is that, nothing can fulfill yourself except you and God.
Don't succumb to influence but instead, influence others.
I'm not saying friends are not important.
When you start to copy and imitate that person... would that person be considered a friend or an idol?
Your friend should be someone you look at on the side.
Not a step higher or lower.
Just a buddy.

P/s To those who just broke up, don't be down. You*** will know what I mean.

Boredom Recreated and Beauty Appreciated

2006-10-29T14:50:00.000-08:00

Mom followed me to 1 Utama to find a job. All efforts were wasted. The conclusion and effect after the trip? We had ice cream. I finally got a chance to play the piano for someone's wedding. Yay. I don't have the photo's for the wedding (boo hoo) but I realized that even thought the wedding wasn't as grand or big as I thought it would or should be, it was so beautiful. I would rarely say anything or admit openly anything would be so beautiful but it just was even thought the couple wasn't the best lookers. They were normal people just like you and me. Even I was there imagining what would my wife will be like or how my wedding would be, I was so attracted by that sacred ceremony when a man and a woman says their vows with their whole heart and join their hearts and flesh in one unit. I was there crappping non-stop about how long my wife's dress would be (16 feet long), 4 pairs of bridemaids who will be carrying her dress, the decor and floral decorations. Anyone whom is interested should ask me as I would be glad to give you the full description.

After the wedding I had to rush off to Times Square to meet up with a friend. =) I'm still allowing you guys do the imagination.

Today, Sunday, the lesson was about the phases of life with the opposite sex. I guess the girls weren't so harsh on us guys. And please!!! I wasn't really critical... all the crap Kevin said was pushed to me!!! Brian, seriously... I don't think of girls badly.
To sum everything up, we thought girls in GENERAL were:
1. Selfish. Well it is kinda true because they endorse and indulge themselves in material products. On the other hand, some of us guys do too. tsk tsk. Teacher Robin said it was how do you phrase selfish. True..true... (This statement was commented by Kevin Tan and Brian Mok)
2. Attractive. The male specimens have raging hormones and have extra amounts of testosterone. We males have raging hormones and therefore will be tempted to eat the opposite sex. Kevin said they were attractive. How, in what way??? =)
3. Mature and easy to talk to. This was kinda my main point in the end and everyone agreed to this statement. Generally, girls mature faster as you Form 3s have studied so hard in this year's Growth chapter. I beg to differ though. Not all girls are like that. Some contain some rage and anger in them which makes them so irate and irritable. Anything that gets in their way will be crushed and destroyed. This is kinda true when the "full moon" is up and they turn into were-wolves. That statement alone thought is still unfair. I think a lot of girls as mature people (but still incomparable to me!!!). They are definitely much more easier to talk to than talking to guys. Knowing us guys, we are not interested in anything other than sport and women. We get so easily turned off when we hear a life's story of other people. These statements are referring to some guys only though.
4. Cute??? I didn't say this but Andrew and Brian said it. I don't get it either. As for me, I find the female species alluring, and indirect, tempting and indefinite.

After reading this post, I would not be surprised when any girl or guy who reads this will be pissed off at each other or at me.

P/s: Brian, sorry for telling Nikki (Veronica) about it. Don't get pissed at me. The actual thing that happened was, she told me before you told me. So in actual fact, it was her who told me. =)

Solitude an Peace

2006-10-22T17:21:00.000-07:00

I went to Fraser's Hill on Friday (Deepavali). Jason, Min On, I-Lyn and Jo-Lyn were there with me to. At least there were some people for me to bug with. It was really quiet there, something that is hard for me to get used to- quietness. It was a good change to go to this laid-back and easy-going environment than just going into the hustle-bustle of the city life. Just the place for a SG leader retreat! yay!(---meant to be sarcastic)

Sam Yong made me listen to Rainie Yang Cheng Ling's songs and I've been listening to it since, probably for three days non-stop? =P. I-Lyn told me that it was a sad song and I'm a sadist. Sam it is all your fault that you made me hear her songs. Disclaimer note: I only like Rainie's voice thank you.

Actually, there's not much to blog about in Fraser's when MOST of the useless buggers were just lazing around in Silver Park watching some anime called Chobits. Meanwhile... me I-Lyn and Jo-Lyn babysitted Isabel or more likely I babysitted three BIG babies in the playground. We then walked al the way to Shazan -my aching feet- just to play Ping Pong and Foosball.

During my free time I also kinda reflected on what the speaker had said about life. He said that everybody deep down wants to make a difference for an eternity. Just like Benjamin Franklin and Nelson Mandela. But in the end... all these people and thier acomplishments, do they really matter? At the end of time, have I really made a difference to the world and to myself? Playing sport and acheiving great results in your studies, do they really matter? I see many people living their lives and trying to suceed but only in the wrong aspects of their lives. The speaker said, live life like you're dying. What he said was just so right. I only have one queston for you guys out there--- what really matter's when you look back into your life? Your love for football? Entertaining your friends? or saving them? Your job for yourself? or the job assign to you that is your life's purpose? Someone is waiting for all of us at the end of time... so make your life and live your life meaningful with the right meaning.

Lost and Alone

2006-10-19T13:52:00.000-07:00

Just on my quiet time last night and while talking with Zi Qian on the trip, I've realised that I am so alone. Different. Other people have different attributes and respond differently. I've also realised that I don't act the way that most people would do. I'm an oddball. I've read on 1 Thesselonians 5:14 says that

"My friends, we beg you to warn anyone who isn't living right. Encourage anyone who feels left out, help all who are weak, and be patient with everyone."

I guess all of us are different and will act differetly. Many will succumb to peer pressure and lead their lives differently. I need to stand still on my ground and hold to what I believe in.

P/s: Zi Qian, thanks for being a good and encouraging friend. Mei Shan told me. Thanks.

Melaka and Kukup

2006-10-18T20:43:00.000-07:00

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I'm just back from Kukup with a bunch of crazy students.
We gathered in the canteen on Monday at 7.00. I sat on the bus with Han Liang who was buggering me non-stop for the whole duration to cam-whore.

We reached A-Famosa with bright hopes and expectations which were kinda disappointed. There were bird shows and multi-animal shows which were okay... but I couldn't understand a single word he said. There was also a cowboy show which was somewhat pointless and entertaining.

We checked into A-Famosa's apartments. I knew it was kinda a mistake when I sat in a table of male specimens like me with high metabolisms. Everyone on the table was hungry and wanted nothing else but food. We were cannibals competing for food. Food was not sufficient and Wai Ken, Han Hwa, Zachary and I had to buy instant noodles...bummer. We saw a few people buying booze and knew something was gonna happen that night. We visited cowboy town and played a bit of arcade.

Later that night... there was kinda more action. I was on my way to Daniel's room when I met Jun Hsien and Phui Yi. I followed them and went to Pn. Teh's room and kena a pep talk from her when we had Phui Yi all alone with us in the room. She was as I predicted... under a lot of stress when she found out about the booze thing. Kelvin was sick in the morning after drinking.

Transferred to Kukup the next day. I learned Mahjong!!! Highly addictive eventhough it may seem boring at the first glance. I played ping pong for the first time and failed miserably. I also became a witness for someone to give someone a smoochy on the cheek. (wolf-whistles) I played Mah Jong with Phui Loo until 5 am because she wouldn't let us leave the game until she wins... poor us.

On the way back everyone was unusually quiet and tired. Everyone just plonked into slumberland. We all arrived earlier than expected and relieved to get off the bus.

Australia Last Year

2006-10-09T12:08:00.000-07:00

Freedom

2006-10-08T17:44:00.000-07:00

自由, Freiheit, свобода, ελευθερία, 자유, liberté and vrijheid all means feedom from my PMR...

I went to this website supplemented from Brian Mok... click here to find your results You need to join and give yr particulars to find out...or you could instead get the answers from me @ school and avoid all hassle. I found that i have 16 mistakes for Sejarah and I kinda think the answers provided for Sejarah are not reliable.

Even though I have been freed from this burden... I am not really that happy as I though I would be. I am still of course still retaining me 酷 (coolness) but seriously... I have no mood at all. I don't know why... I'm not mentally unstable mind you. But I feel down but not depressed. Even though I may make you guys laugh with my corny-ness but I am down but not yet out.

Went out with Yuen Yang and gang on Saturday... Ate McD's (bleagh)... three days in a row. We played bowling. My team won by demoralization to the other team. Sorry lah... I went home early to attend a music practice.

Small goup later was ok... I guess... Casey pierced her tongue and nose... bizzare.

The forum we attended on Sunday was good in the beginning but when we reached the ending...I got kinda lost and didn't get it. Oh well...

Tears fom heavan for COMFORT

2006-09-18T15:39:00.000-07:00

Exactly a fortnight to PMR...
The adrenaline is pumping in me even though I appear calm... God save me...
I won't pretend I am not buggered at all for this gripping event.

This whole period you can see PMR and SPM students close to having anxiety attacks...
This period of pain, sorrow and disacchord.
But I will continue to look on the bright side of things and move forward... many things are waiting
Even though some bad thing occurred...
I won't ask you to hide your pain... to hold your tears, or pretend to be happy.
Someone is there to help you out... it maybe me or the big G up there.
We're here to lend a hand or hand you that icy drink on that hot sunny day.
BE comforted... and we'll walk towards the light to a place where there will be peace.
BE comforted.
Even though if you didn't get the results you wanted.
There is still a life waiting...
So look ahead... and buck up

Mr Yong... the devil teacher

2006-09-12T14:21:00.000-07:00

As the tittle suggests... me and I-Lyn are teachers!!! Teacher Leslie wanted us to be tutors to dumbers like Brian...

Well... she made me teach and I couldn't really refuse to a young, blond and attractive teacher, couldn't I? No lar... she's not that bad actually. Even though how long-winded she is... her lessons are kinda interesting in a way.

Congratulations to me everyone... I'm called a devil by a stranger for the second time.

This time it was by my cousin's little friend Brandon. Yay... another Brandon. It was when I asked Marcus (my cousin) to not kacau me... and I put some curry powder in his rice... Mam Bennalyn caught me and that was when I heard... "Marcus why your older cousin brother so evil like a devil."
Sigh...

Yummy...

2006-09-08T19:42:00.000-07:00

Thanks to me...my whole family will be deprived from ice-cream. Just like Jo-Lyn, I enjoy ice-cream very very much. So much that I eat it everyday...to every half a day...then every four hours and now one hour intervals. I can't help myself... I still eat it whether it is one spoon full to five jumbo scoops. I prefer the five jumbo scoops though. But luckily enough my metabolism is fast enough if not... I might just be like this guy.

So I hope that my little metabolism keeps running until I'm old enough to feel sick of ice-cream.

Trials are not officially ended yet. Monday is the last day because they couldn't fit all of the exams in five. Art and B.M. left... art... well I hope Pn. Kwang will be fooled either by my jinjang type of drawing (she loves jinjang colours and thinks pink and green goes well together) or by my fantastical good looks (no need for the applause or cheer please my fans) that makes her blind. (I'm kinda being half sarcastic..well maybe not) It's a Friday and my parents are out. Sittting in the house half wanting to study and half wanting to grab some of that tempting, sweet, delicious, scrupmtious, mouth watering vanilla macadamia caramel cruch that my mom's been saving for other times. So I thought what else to do but just blog. I remembered in some spiritual help book on temptations that when you're tempted to do some other things you should keep yourself occupied.

Temptations... what are your temptations? I think I should get people who read this and have a blog to write the top six things that tempt them the most. That means Ying Ling (I probably have a raft idea), Brian, Kevin, Zi Qian and I-Lyn.

The top ten things that tempt me.
1. Ice cream (especially the tasty looking nut cruch with caramel fuze of cookies in the freezer)
2. A sweet young lady with a nice tush who acts like a sweet young lady. This does not include those barbaric women out there with their chest hair sticking out. (all this is probably true except the tush part... well... maybe not... how naughty of me)
3. A chance to drop my brother of a cliff with a deep ravine with horrors unimaginable in result that he dies a horrible infernal death.
4. The above is the same to the person sitting beside me... non other than Han Hwa. Han Hwa, if you're reading this... you should be glad to know that I am still planning to murder you.
5. A nice pillow for my head to rest in the classroom
6. Lastly... an offer for me to present myself to the fans out there who simply can't resist me.

The ice-cream is calling me...my destiny awaits in the next freezer...

Hold My Hand

2006-09-05T13:58:00.000-07:00

Exams, exams, exams are what we Form 3s are talking about. I now see people who were once lazy-asses now hiding their noses into their Sejarah and K.H books. aiyoo...

I don't feel the funny side of me anymore... I don't feel me wild and joyous anymore. Everyone around me is so moody and is just so close to snap. I need some one to hold my hand. my mommy and daddy held my little pudgy hand when I was young but I suppose now I have to stand on my two feet and be independant. But there is still a person who still holds my hand...

You hold my hand in the darkness and shadows.
I do not fear anything because You gives me the strenght to go on.
Even though I have dissapointed You...
I know I'm forgiven and I'm alright again when I say sorry.
Please hold my hand... I'm lost.
Just guide me and I will follow.
You knew me in the the secret place when there was nothing.
All I want at the moment is for You to hold my hand.

West Side Story...I Feel pretty...

2006-08-25T12:31:00.000-07:00

I suppose you guys have either watched West Side Story the musical or either heard me singing it in the showers... it is an amusing song... Introducing 'I Feel Pretty'

West Side Story - I Feel Pretty Lyrics
MARIA
I feel pretty, oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and gay
And I pity any girl who isn't me today
I feel charming, oh so charming
It's alarming how charming I feel
And so pretty, that I hardly can believe I'm real
See the pretty girl in that mirror there?
Who can that attractive girl be?
Such a pretty face, such a pretty dress
Such a pretty smile, such a pretty me!
I feel stunning, and entrancing
Feel like running and dancing for joy
For I'm loved, by a pretty wonderful boy
GIRLS
Have you met my good friend Maria
The craziest girl on the block?
You'll know her the minute you see her
She's the one who is in an advanced state of shock
She thinks she's in love
She thinks she's in Spain
She isn't in love
She's merely insane
It must be the heat
Or some rare disease
Or too much to eat
Or maybe it's fleas
Keep away from her
Send for Chino
This is not the Maria we know
Modest and pure
Polite and refined
Well-bred and mature
And out of her mind!
Miss America, Miss America, speech!
Miss America, bravo, speech!
MARIA
I feel pretty, oh so pretty
That the city should give me its key
A committee, should be organized to honour me
I feel dizzy, I feel sunny
I feel fizzy and funny and fine
And so pretty
Miss America can just resign
See the pretty girl in that mirror there
(What mirror, where?)
Who can that attractive girl be?
(Which, what, where, whom?)
Such a pretty face, such a pretty dress
Such a pretty smile, such a pretty me!
MARIA & GIRLS
I feel stunning, and entrancing
Feel like running and dancing for joy
For I'm loved, by a pretty wonderful boy

After you all heard and witness this... my madness is confirmed. It is contagious too.

On another case... this is for Zi Qian.
Click me

Music Tag

2006-08-21T15:11:00.000-07:00

Got tagged by Brian...
List Seven Songs you are into right now.
No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.
1. Because of You by Kelly Clarkson...she's good.

2. Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows

3. The Sonnets of The Four Seasons by Antonio Vivaldi (Baroque era)

4. Hymm by Bond inspired by that prissy guy above. Neve thought good looking chicks can play good music?

5. All I Ask of You by Phantom of The Opera (I know those ppl out there disliking the Form 2 Lit are Phantom of The Opera haters but this is a real classy song)

6. Turrandot: Nessun Dorma sang by Luciano Pavarotti...seriously moves you...literaly

7.借口 (Excuses) by Jay Chou...no matter how much I dislike his singing and his ban cool looks...still have to give him credit for the lyrical creativity.

I tag:
1. Kelvin
2. ZI Qian
3. I-Lyn
4. Rowena (if she's still alive)
5. Audrey

Look at the birdy...

2006-08-18T20:20:00.000-07:00

Well... today... I think everyone's mad including me.
Perhimpunan was a boring and I was busy kacauing Han Hwa.
After that... we went for KH... and I PASSED>...just that border line. Han Hwa got whacked twice...haha
Later in the day... we (3 Cempaka) was supposed to decorate the class. Burung mewakili kebebasan. And guess what was I doing?
We were folding origami birds...
Nice little birdie
Then Han Hwa or was it Chong Sheng who started commenting on me being a MB (the idiot)... then the whole group started to talk about birds... utterly disgusting...
It was like...
MB: I lend my bird to Phui Loo...
Some disgusting pert: You shouldn't have, she'll keep it forever.

MB: I like that bird
Another disgusting idiot: Of course... you're just jealous cause' you don't have one.

MB: Mommy... I want a birdie...
Chong Sheng the idiot squashes MB's bird whom MB folded it after so much hard work.
MB: Oh no!!! I'll tell my mommy... you squashed my birdie... you evil...

and it goes on...
"That birdie big..."
"That bird is so pretty"
"Phui Loo's bird is so #$%@#$%"
"The bird means freedom??? wt..."

And guess what... I think I better stop now... cause this is driving me nuts... And speaking of nuts...
Nope... me as a saint will not raise the topic. Ying Ling...you and your nuts.
You all should not let this incident make you all think I'm like one of those idiots... but please think of me as the little innocent saint-like kid down the street.

Tag you're it

2006-08-12T13:05:00.000-07:00

Come to think of it... I liked playing catching when I was that little squirt you saw running around school or church. So long ago... Maybe I even still like it. =)

Ok... this is probably my last update until after PMR... so don't miss me my devoted readers and fans.

I got tagged by I-Lyn.
the rules are:
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover
2. Has to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time.There is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

Ok first of all... it would be kinda obvious that my perfect lover is a male... I mean female (Oopsie). So i dun't really see the point of putting that clause of that rule in.
Ok... time to get serious... (I'm seriously gonna get serious for this seriously serious part of this serious game)
The points are:
1. She must be a strong and faithful beliver in God.
2. She belives in my love and can trust in me that I will do my best to give her the security she needs.
3. She is humourously funny and can understand my lame jokes that I make to other people which deserves cricking of crickets.
4. She is passionately in love with me as I am with her.
5. She will see through the weaknesses in me and suppport me.
6. She will give me a kiss when I come home from work and can 煮饭 (cook) as good or even better than my mom.
7. Can give me good massage... ah... so syok...
8. Finally... she won't be so 凶 (fierce)... aiyo... those fierce women out there so fierce until the husband so scared of her.

Conflict... after exposition before climax

2006-08-09T16:47:00.000-07:00

These few days, me and Han Hwa has been really annoying and I think we've pissed off Sheng Li and Sue Vern..
Well... maybe we all were irritating but I supposed they wouldn't need to look at us that way... or maybe we were real irritating. =) Aiya... I was quite buggered at first but then I just thought it was amusing. They're probably devising more insults to me.
That's what I get when I am talking to a mental cat sitting besides me. Must not be so irritating la me... (I also admit ) conflicts...

Scouts camp this Sat... I suppose if I help then I would be fine. Tuck Loong angry at those people who deserted scouts. He shouldn't respond that way though... but I suppose he had a point there. Conflicts...

Thomas and I were sitting at one quiet corner to study in WBS and guess what? Han Liang's theory of rotten eggs were true.
We both were sitting there quietly and suddenly it hit me like a bus. I didn't belive it at first but... Proffesor Han Liang deserves the nobel prize to discover this magical phenomenon.
The Nobel Prize of Chemistry to discover such a phenomenon
I'm not being a sexist here, but if you just take a look see, you would probably find that there is a girl involved in a conflict. aiyo... dangerous man. Probably you shouldn't pick a fight with them during their 'peak' period. Then in their inner circles of girls... there's probably biting up each other's back. Sam told me to not so involved with girls who have their estrogen or progestrogen high up. He said that girls are complex organisms... so guys are less complex? I dun't know, but these high and spicy girls are erratic and unpredictable... The wonders of women and their womenhood.

2 BR... just yesterday

2006-08-05T13:50:00.000-07:00

A moment to stop and think... My 2BR friends last year... really had a great time then
Sorry if I don't have your photo here... and for those in the pic I didn't give an elaboration... sorry la.
I'm seriously wasting so much time on this blogging... I couldn't put everyone's pic here... I'll do a second version next time of this year's class and church mates'.

undies, boxers and more...

2006-08-01T14:46:00.000-07:00

Uncle Robin gave the weirdest statement to keep your cool... think of him or naked sheep dancing around in a field. Weird and bizzare it is. So that brought me along the lines of underwear for the topic of today.

Undies... Renoma, Clavin Klein, Depi, Pierre Cardin and the rest of the junk. The worst colour of undies are actually shocking pink or red... We guys have our preferences of boxers and the lycra-triangular undie. This whole week we (Umesh, Han Liang, Thomas) been asking our delectable moniter what colour of undie (which part I'm not telling) he/she's been wearing... cause lately last week our poor moniter got "spotted" by our asst. moniter Han Liang or Thomas that he/she's wearing polka dotted under wear. Disgusting actually. Someone said it waas bought from Scarlet... oops.

That wasn't so bad... after venturing to Ipoh this year. my poor small group youths are under the impression that people in Ipoh don't wear any undies. It was when I walked into a restaurant... then I think my eyes wandered off somewhere and saw this guy's ass crack. Lucky Andrew Liow was the second lucky person to see it. Not too long after that, Nikki saw a women's one too... and these kind of people who don't wear underwear popped up like the pimples on a teenagers face raging with hormones. So my conclusion for people out there... wear what ever you guys want inside cause we don't want any of your insides getting too much of our paparazie kind of exposure.

wOo...

2006-07-25T18:18:00.000-07:00

Me wake up... me feel like caveman... me grumpy... me hit dumb bruduh and smash bruduh's skull.
That's what you get when you try to wake me up in the early wee hours of Saturday... for my brother's case la.

Sunday...
I went rock climbing to celebrate I-Lyn's birthday... met two of her quirky friends... made me want to go to MC more. Really enjoyed it. Something different.

Monday...
Almost everyone dreads to go for assembly. Especially when you have to listen to our headmistress drone on and on... (She's a nice person but boring). It was the opening ceremony for a soccorthon fund raising event. The Dato' from the Damansara district made the event a tad bit more interesting when he gave his speech. Not being mean, but when he spoke, it was as if he had a duck squeaker stuck in his throat... and obviously everyone was stiffling their laughter... I got told off for laughing by a prefect who was also laughing himself. tut tut.

Tuesday...
This is the day that i remember that I sit with a mental patient from Tanjung Rambutan that needs me to feed him his pills every 2 hours. I dunno whether i pity him or myself. Aiyo... I really kena from the girls sitting in front of me and beside me when they (Chong Sheng, Han Hwa and the rest of the buggers) play and I don't do anything. Just today, Thomas, Kai Ming, Han Hwa, Wai Yew and Chong Sheng was folding newspaper pellets and firing at each other across the class. Gawsh...

By the way... today is I-Lyn's birthday.
I'm glad to know you, a person who asks me to chill always but sendiri also dunno how to chill. =)
Sorry for being a slave driver and a irritable bugger when planning the games last year...

Attached or addicted? Me as an oddball

2006-07-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I just realised something...
I am not really attached to something.
Jason is attached to his football,
Han Hwa is attached to his anime movies,
Eunice is attachd to her chinese sitcom show,
I-Lyn likes dancing,
Yuen Ling is addicted to scouts,
Ying Ling to her fashionable outfits and accessories in Topshop and her shoes. (and of course my checkbook, dah-ling)
Han Liang probably would be addicted to girls or something more???
Rowena, Jolyn and the rest of te world would enjoy best insulting me.
But me... for one thing is that I am not hooked on to games, sports or anything... just an odd ball...
But there is one thing in my life that I am hooked on to ... my heavanly father above.
It is just sometimes when you just keep sinning and you don't really realise it because everyone is blind and numb from their doings. I may not be exactly doing everything on what He says now... but I am proud to say that I am glad and grateful that I have Him and will be willing to live a live full of intergrity for him. My convenant with Him, His promise to me. He is my rock and my reedeemer. My first love.